am i doing right?

i really dunno...
am i doing right...
there are somethings that im sure what is right and wrong
but some...
there is not definite answer...
i dunno... what i did.. was it right..
or actually indirectly hurting you also...

i dunno... should i defend you...
speak out for you...
or just let you be..
i thot this is the way to love you...
but... prob this way hurt you also...
am i too protective??
am i too insensitive??
seeing you like that...
i feel... nothing i can do for the first time...
helpless...
all i can do is just quietly be beside you...
i think this is the best thing i can do for you..

i just feel..
the more into relationship inregardless of whether is
love, friendship or even in family relationship
the more i dun und...
i think i have loss balance...
im lost... dunno what else can i do...
or dunno what should i do...
im scare.. to be.. in any relationship now...
i very scare to love....

*Lord... teach me.. and guide me again...
only You understand and know me from the inside out.
help me to see and strengthen me again..
fill me with You, because You are love...*