a meaningful story- the room

when i read this story written in i kissed dating goodbye this book,by joshua harris , it brought a lot of thoughts and feelings to me.it arouses my emotions.. let me recommend u this story.. read it till the end and share a thot with me..

at first of typing the whole story but is kinda long yet short story.. so let me summarize..
is bout a dream that he had.he found himself in a room, look like library with a look of files and books around. like in the library, there are different titles and headings. through his surprise, he found books with heading like "Girls i have liked", "Books i have read", "Lies have i told","Comfort i have give", "Jokes i have laughed at",or even "things i have yelled at my brother", "things i have muttered under my breath at my parents" , " things i have done in my anger", "friends i have betrayed" and even " people i have shared the gospel with " and the title of the books go on and on.. every content in the books written the names he is familiar..he never ceased to be surprised by the contents. often there were many more pages than he expected in some books and for some books there were fewer pages than he hoped.each pages of all these books was signed by his signature and written with his handwritting.

all the good, bad events, every words he said and even those that was in his mind like "lustful thoughts" was all written down and compile in books.. then come to his senses that all these books should not be read or found by others.. no one should enter this room..then, in his desperation, he tries to tear every book, every page or burn it but the work just failed.. it can never be destroyed.he then cried with shame and began to weep.when suddenly..........

someone came to the room.. the man look at him(the author) and began to read all those books in the room..the man- Jesus... he watched helplessly when Jesus began to read and he couldn't bear to watch Jesus's responses.finally, Jesus turned and look back to him, with compassion and pity in His eyes, Jesus didn't say a single word, nor was He angry, He just cry with him. then Jesus got up and walked back to the wall of books. starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and one by one, began to sign His name over the author's signature on each pages..the name of Jesus covered his name, it is written with His blood. after He signed all the books, He placed His hands over the author's shoulder and said, "it is finished"
the author left the room with Jesus. but there was no lock on the door, there were still pages to be written.
~the end~
after reading it, my heart paused.. how many books will there in my room of library?? i just feel ashamed even when i think of it.we are no worhty yet Jesus come and cancel our signature on every page, taking our sins.. out of love, JEsus came.. remember Jesus cancel our name but every things or words or thoughts we do, still written there. not deleted.. it makes me to be careful of what i say, what i do, what i think in the future to come. as christian, it is written in the bible, one day we will be put into account of what we do.. i hope from today onwards, i will write my life on good account for His glory not mine....

what's ur thoughts after reading it??

meaningful week

is been great spending time with my spiritual mom the other day.. just like daughter and mom.. we go shopping, walk around.. at nite we watch show together.. listening song.. the next morning, eating lunch together.. u know.. just so sweet, comfortable.. i really had a great time and these memories i'll kept in heart..

wed, i went out with wai han.. on a mission.. haha.. we walk around till both of us so tired.. but at last, finally, we manage to finish our task.. then she come over to my place to do something.. wow.. it took us 5 hours.. just to complete it.. of cuz, in the between, there is always laughter and joy.. she is someone that i can work very well with.. somehow, she knows wat i wan and know wat i gonna say and vice versa.. very close to my heart...

today is agnes birthday.. so we went out to celebrate her big day.. her 21st birthday!! we went to green box to sing k.. this is the first time we sing k together..haha.. have a good time just singing like nobody business.. of cuz, she wil be singing her favourite songs.. may the Lord bless her even as she turn 21.. may the Lord continue to guard over her life, watch over her..may the Lord grant you His favor esp ur future.. in Jesus name i pray, amen!! take k, agnes..

events after another

since now im free.. hehe.. i quit my job dy.. then waiting for local uni application now.. so, i must use this 3 weeks of time wisely and fully.. so i have plan almost everyday what to do..
last thursday(29/5) is for sow fun de. i went to her house and spent good quality time with her.. do one2one with her.. have a good nice chat with her.. she is such a sweet gal.. very considerate and lovable..
then friday(30/5) morning i went to florence house to spent time with her.. haha.. she is doing one2one with me while i do with sow fun.. she is my mentor.. she takes care of me when i was form 3 till now.. so, everything i will tell her and she is my accountability.. she will correct me and look after especially in spiritual life.. i look up to her.. and is such a good beautiful time with her.. have a good laugh, a good heart to heart talk.. then evening we have WIDE 201.. this training is conducted by my spiritual parents that is pastor victor and pastor kelly.. that night we learn about paranoma of the life of Christ..
Saturday(31/5) is the whole day for WIDE 201.. i learnt a lot in this training about who is jesus, about His miracle, His life... and the parables He teaches.. He is not only a great noble man, great teacher.. to me, Jesus is my Lord and my Saviour.. that means He is everything in my life.. He is the decision maker in my life.. i love Him and salute Him.. one of the advantage for this training is that we have practical.. like WIDE 101 we have smile 101.. this time we have smile 201.. the assignment is to invite ur fren to certain place and to present John 3:16.then based on wat score they give to the presenter determine whether we will graduate or not. i was like.. huh.. so hard.. cuz hardly ppl will come just to listen to u then go back.. first one i called is my best fren.. wan see.. she is just so good.. once i called and told her, she without hesitation agree to help me.. lee miin, my 12 years of fren come too.. i really wan to give honor to both of them.. for willing to come and help me.. just a call, they come.. wat are frens for.. they help me to see and experience further the meaning of frens.. not forgetting kar woen and yen fong.. at first they wanted to come too but due to some delay, i told them need not to rush to come because of me..thanks to u all too..
sunday(1/6) which is today.. i went to church, to Charis Santuary with my brother this morning cuz pastor serena is preaching there.. so pastor noah is there..pastor serena is talking about transition in life.. i feel it speaks a lot to me as im in the junction right now.. whether local uni will send to where,i dunno..but i wan to be like mary in the story.. where she always sit beside the Lord Jesus.. first she listen to the LORD, secondly she poured out to God when her brother Lazarus passed away.she cried to Jesus and Jesus out of compassion, He raised him from the dead.. thirdly, she poured the perfume, her precious thing to her and it cost a year wages..she chose to pour it for Jesus. then afternoon, i attend the continuous Minitering Spiritual Gift 1 in EFC by pastor serena..through this seminar, i have learn to activate the spiritual gift, prophesize, release the word of knowledge, the word of wisdom and the discerning spirit.. besides, pastor serena had personally prophesize over me..i feel so touched.. i felt God's presence and i sense The Lord had answer my questioned.. God had affirmed me and He has show the way for me to follow.. Glory to be God..Praise to be God.

monday(2/6) that is tomolo.. i will be going to pastor kelly house to spent a night with her... i belive it will be a great time.. looking forward tomolo..