journey of life

26 March 2009 today i have been very enthusiastic in jogging around in UKM.. what motivates me?? i guess is because of the 11km orange run.. 11km le.. must training a bit..so, im at my sport wear and i met siew chee.. my coursemate.. she heard that im jogging and she wanted to join also.. So, at the end, both of us jogged.. from KAB to Zaba through KIY hill.. then from my college to enginnering fac.. jog around the lake one round.. from there to my faculty again.. takes around 45 mins.. wow.. good good.. must jog more often...must live a healthy life style.. at night went to Ann's house with Albert.. had a good chat and nice dinner together.. should have talk to Ann more often. haha.. 27 March 2009 i have been looking forward this day to come.. because......... im meeting one of my old old fren.. which i know her when i was 8years old. we were very close that time.. then she pts jump to standard 5..and move to kedah once graduate.. i dun get a chance to meet her at all.. or even say good bye.. so, today finally we are meeting up.. 6pm..my sisters and i went to bandar tasik selatan LRT station to pick her.. o... thank God that i can still recognize her.. hehe.. actually i couldnt recognize her at all.. but my face din change ever since young.. so she manage to recognize me...then we spend time at my house to chat, eat dinner.. and tell of the stories of "those were the days" and also update each other of recent news.. when we meet up, as though the 7 years gap never exists.. we really laugh and have a good time teasing each other:P can u believe it?? all i remember is i din get to say good bye to her when she leave to kedah.. but manage to get her number and also email.. i guess.. then form 2 when i went kedah, she accidentally saw me.. kedah so big yet we are able to meet.. haha.. then from then onwards, i never meet her up again... 7 years le..so long, i would consider..though is long, somehow i still feel our relationship is still close.. she is now studying in IMU, medic.. she is always the bright student:) pray that God continue to bless her and guide her in her path..o.. i use to tease her name.. because sound like one of the drink.. haha... this good fren of mine -- YIKO

this is our first photo together...after knowing her for like.. 13 years.. finally we have a photo..

im really happy to meet her back again.. then we visit our primary school teacher - cikgu png. she teach us bm in standard 2.. though just a year, but a wonderful and friendly teacher like her, i would never forget..:) 28 March 2009 early in the morning went to bowling centre for class today. in fact, got ujian psikomotor.. din do well.. a bit down.. but later meet up with jin shyan to do one2one with her.. and my emotions are all changed.. hehe.. is always so joyous to enter the house of the Lord.. i enjoy time spending time with her.. 830pm my house are all dark in line with the earth hour.. hehe.. then we decided to go out to fetch my mother at MCA there.. near KLCC.. so im able to see the KLCC lights off and lights on again.. i think it is a good campaign to create the awareness of saving electric, reduce CO2, recycling and most of all, to love our earth again..

this is the photo when the KLCC on the lights again..

30 March 2009 is another school day.. wake up early.. sadly that my "milo mug" is spoilt.. how to survive without mug to drink milo.. i must drink it every morning de..trying to find one again but is just so hard. my brother, sister even theng said that i very cerewet in choosing.. hmm.. am i??:P well, see tomolo how la.. another thing, shean is back.. haha.. kinda miss her around this 2 weeks.. because left me alone in the tutorial class:P welcome back, shean... this afternoon i received a fren's call but i couldn't answer because im in the class.. i feel so regret.. i should have pick up the call..i should have call back.. but.. i didnt.. hope she is ok.. anyway, will continue to pray for her and her family.. let us believe by faith that God hears... tomolo is viva.. and i dun have the mood to study..of cuz.. have to study also.. no choice ma.. so gambate ba!!

友情 - 大学 - 朋友

为什么？？

原本我想这样就post了。。但是，感谢上帝帮助我去度过这一关。。感谢神，开导了我。。

其实，
今天有点很难过
发生了很多事情
让我看到了很多
也因此学了宝贵的一课

世上有很多种人
有的绝情
有的很友善
有的虚伪

但我一直相信
世上是会有童话的

爱
真的很难
除了上帝，
又还有谁能无条件的爱我们？

上帝，求你帮我
赐我力量
赐我爱心
赐我宽容
去爱身边的每一个人
虽然，
有时，
爱，
真的很难

my first kecemerlangan akademik award

today mark the history of my life.. the first time i ever got this award.. anugerah pengetua kecemerlangan akademik. when i get sms from the person in charge, i was shocked actually.. i feel so happy getting this award because only the top 2 score for each fac in my college will get this award.. in my 21 years of life.. i never been awarded for my academik result. Thank you God for giving me this result. It is really by His grace and favor. that day, my dad sms me and say that he is proud of me. i feel so touch.. i being affirmed.. receiving pastor vic and kelly msg is so heart warming.. i really feel so touch and encouraged when pastor and florence give me the affirmation...not to boast of my result, but just to share my happiness here.. im nothing without God.. so give thanks and glory to God for this result..

this is us waiting bus to go dectar :)

this is my roommate and me...wearing baju kebaya.. nice or not??

this is us.. along the stairs..

this is all of us.. in front of zaba.. all the leng lui ss...

this is our table.. table number 17..

Michelle and i..

Seow Voon and i.. took the prize.. feel so happy:)

running the race

today as i do devotion, this is what i have learned

Hebrews 12:1

we have around us many people whose lives tell us what faith means. So let us run the race that is before us and never give up. We should remove from our lives anything that would get in the way and the sin that so easily holds us back.
v2
Let us look only to Jesus, the One who began our faith and who makes it perfect...

2Timothy 4:7

I have fought the good fight, i have finished the race, i have kept the faith

from this i suddenly remember for the orange run that we are going to run on the 12th April.. 11km.. very long distance..i think my legs cant take it but still want to participate..:)

our lives is like running the race.. further than 11km.. is a life long race.. like in the race, different ppl do run in a different speed, some fast and some slow.. but at the end, we still reach the finishing line. throughout the race, some might feel tired, some might feel like quitting. i believe is biblical to stop and rest at this moment.. rest in God.. then continue to race.. run to get prize.. with all our heart.. run to the throne of God..
suddenly this picture come into my mind..

when i was running, God is running beside me.. it is easier and fun to have someone to run with you. when i'm tired of running, and the finishing line seem so far to be seen, God is still there, encouraging me to continue the race.. as i continue to race, God keep revealing the things before me. im not running alone.. im running with God.. heading to the finishing line:)

say no to this movie

say no to this movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok ok.. i think i over reacted.. but i really dun like this movie.. can u imagine, i walk out of the cinema before the show ends.. i cant stand the violence and etc..so, ppl if u ever think of watching this.. faster delete this thought... remember...NO TO WATCHMEN I dun know why they got nominated.. i heard because this superhero show is different from the previous superhero movie we watched.. im so sorry but i just want to watch a typical superhero movie where superhero is meant to superior,good, and helpful.. not involved in immorality, killing the innocent and etc... but i do agree on one point which one of the character say.. "it is not God who make the world like this(so immoral and ugly), it is us (human) who make it" God make this world holy, perfect.. but we.. have sins and fallen short of God's glory, making the world such a havoc place..

tuesdays with Morrie

last friday and saturday i went to a retreat Deep 101.. the speakers are Ps Victor and Ps Kelly... rather to say learn, i actually rest in the Lord.. to rest in His arm again.. during this retreat, we watched this movie "Tuesdays with Morrie".. i have read the book and the movie i have watched more than 2 times.. however, everytime i watch, i have learn different things..and tears just cant be controlled:) it is a nice show which i think you all should watch...

 Things i have learn (quoted from the movie)

1. though Mitch forgot the promise he made to Morrie, Morrie still remember and forgive him.. he welcome Mitch with a hug..
2. silent.. Why people feel not comfortable of silent??
3. Morrie said that he was a lucky man to have somone to wipe his ass... because it means he has someone who loves and cares for him..
4. when you know how to die, you know how to live
5. we must love one another or you die
6. aging is not a decay of body but growth
7. how do Morrie deal with his sadness of this disease? every morning, he grief, he mourns then he detached from it.he said it is enough for today. he don't allow himself to dwell with it any longer.
8. we need to learn to give love to others in the same time receiving love from others.
9. always imagine there is bird on your shoulder. and ask him each day : am i ready? am i living? am i the person i want to be?
10. life pulling it back and forth like a rubber band but love always win
11. love is the only rasional act
12. he told of a story that the small wave are scared for he is going to crush to the rock. the big wave answered why scare? you're not a wave, you are part of the ocean.(something like that):P
13. dependency. there is nothing to be shamful of being dependent
14. while we are infants and we are almost dying, we need others to survive.. but in the between of it, we need others even more.
15. forgive everybody and everything.. ( there is no time to hold grudges since life is short)
16. death ends a life, not a relationship
17. there if 2 things we tried to avoid - touching and crying.. (these both are essential in our life.. we need people's touch and learn to cry)

the sheep recognize the shepherd's voice

that day, someone told me this. the sheep recognizes the shepherd's voice. i was like.. en.. i know this. heard it many times dy.. but wat amazing is this, which makes my perspective to this phrase will never be the same again.

here im with my elder sister in car. she needs some direction so we decided to call. because she is driving so i use her phone to call. firstly, i call brother...

melia : mel, where are you?
melvin: im now at leisure mall waiting bus
melia : oh.. meaning u are not at home? i need you to help me check something act
melvin: oh.. i cant help

what is so different of this conversation?? nothing.. but do notice.. i din tell him who im.. since im using my sister phone, so i thot he will assume me as sis..
but after 3 mins, he call again

melvin: jie, what time you're back?
melia : around 4plus gua.. y?
melvin: Jie, why you will be with mandy jie??
melia : ?!! how come you know?!!!!!!
melvin: of cuz i know la..

aiya.. how come de le?? others people always mistake me and my sis voice de lo...ok.. nvm.. then i helped sis to called dad...notice.. i use sis phone.. and din tell dad who im...

melia: dad, do you know where got CIMB in Pudu?
dad : why?

melia: cuz i need to bank in my pay slip and to check my account (notice.. this is helping my sister to ask de... she got pay slip and i dun have)hehe.. and i use i as if im sister who called...

dad : o.. im not sure o..
melia: then is ok la.. ( i thought dad dunno im melia)
dad: have you bought finish your things??
melia: huh??(o... believe me, my mouth is really wide open by then because i told dad im going out to buy things before this.. how can he knows is me le???) i replied.. o.. i bought finish dy..

........
o... my sister is laughing besides me.. she said i tried 2 times also failed.. at the end, she said.. you think our daddy dunno your voice and my voice meh..
"the sheep recognizes the shepherd's voice, all the more the shepherd recognizes his sheepsss voices..."

then i think... haha.. how foolish im in thinking i can pretend in front of my dad.. my dad knows us inside out le..

put it into the context of God.. God our shepherd, HE definately knows and recognizes our voices.. i believe when we pray together (like 20 ppl) he knows each and every of our voices.. but the questions throw back to us.. can u recognize God's voice?? i believe if we spend most time with our frens or our loved ones, you can identify each voice.. then, are you spending enough time with God that you can identify His voice??do you know your shepherd's voice???

sleep...

recently find it so hard to wake up..
when i wake up is like dragging my whole body to get up..
haha. my roommate could tell...
yesterday i took a nap
because the day before only sleep 4 hours..
then almost couldnt wake up..
thanks to my alarm..
haha..
i think if i sleep early should be ok de..
cant sleep so late lo.
if not my body cant take it dy lo...
must love myself and my body... :)

stage fright

the first time i ever stand on stage alone is when i was standard 2... for a singing competition.. i couldn't recall why i join.. is it teacher?? mom?? or myself?? i think the answer of myself is very very low.. that experience as far as i can remember is not that nice.. from that incident, i said to myself i wont join any singing competition. haha..

i remember the same year, teacher asked who wants to join story telling competition.. i was so scared that i hide under the table hoping teacher wont see me.. o.. can u imagine, i was so funny that time.. so scared..

the following year, when i was standard 3..mom encouraged me to take up this challenge.. i have to fight against my fear.. i remember the story telling is in chinese.. i took 2 weeks to prepare.. memorizing from head to toe.. repeated dunno how many times.. mom is the one who accompany me and teach me the body language and the tone.. mom walked with me thru that time.. o..mom won some prizes when she is young on story telling competition also le...forgot the details in the competition.. all i know..i get number 2!!!!super happy de...

when i was standard 4, i joined story telling for malay, english and chinese.. until standard 6... do i enjoy it?? i enjoy the time when i get prizes..haha.. am i scared.. yes... very.. every time i was so frightened that my knees keep knocking each other, my heart pumping so fast that i really scare i cant take it.. my hands are perspiring and shivering.. but my face will look calm... according to my frens...

then in my secondary life, going up on stage is becoming more and more frequent.. either in school or church.. then in CF.. then sharing testimony in MBS, in front of 200 students.. around there.. o.. i still can recalled, that day, my hands shiver that ppl can see.. haha.. cuz im holding paper.. so next time no more paper on hand...

experience in UKM is that i suddenly.. out of no where being asked by Prof to join malay debate.. and to my surprise.. really surprise.. i got the best speaker and my team won...

a lot of ppl admire my confident.. my natural way.. haha.. i always tell them.. i was so scared.. all the nervous symptons are all out.. my heart pumping super super fast.. i was not born like this.. i was being trained i would say.. by my mom... and thank you to my mom that she always creates opportunity that i can practise all these by asking me to be emcee wherever chance she has.. at first i feel so relunctant.. i hate it.. i dun want to do it.. im not that type of person who is in front de.. i like to keep low profile... but now, looking back, i guess it is a good traning ground also.. though is a hard way i would say..

above all, i give credit to God.. really all of it.. im a shy, timid person ( although a lot of ppl will say that im not).. i thank God that He has change me.. He walked through every moment with me.. He gives me peace and joy.. He assures me.. when i stand in front, He is right beside me.. holding my hands.. if im talking something about Him, He will help me in my words.. He will put words into my mouth that i do not need to worry wat to speak... because i know i can never do it, i know when i can is all because of HIM.. really.. He is like my father, correcting me and guiding me when everytime im on stage.. He is like a fren, cheering for me and encourages me..

God, i surrender this gift to ur hand.. use it for ur kingdom.. though i might not like it, but God, help me to see in a different perspectives and prepare my heart for Ur mighty plan. love you dad...In jesus name i pray, Amen...

UPM trip - visit wan see

today wake up at 730am.. why so early even today dun have class?? because im meeting a very important person today.. o... important person.. prince charming?? hehe... sadly to say no prince charming but is my best fren, wan see!!!!! hehe.. it seems long time din see her dy.. so today make an effort to see her.. where?? UPM... ok.. today's planning.. 7am wake up...8am i need to take the 6z bus to UKM ktm station.. then from there, take train to serdang ktm..from there, someone who is wei leong will pick me up from station to her college.. estimated time reach wan see college is 930am.. which is exactly her lecture class ends.. here it goes.. as i said.. i woke up at 730am.. because i was tired and i sleep quite late the day before.. nvm, i still able to catch the 8am bus.. and i met en wan in the bus.. she is going back to her hometown.. is really good to talk to her for like 10 mins.. and took train together..i guess this is the longest conversation i have with her.. i guess i should have talk more with her.. hehe..o.. en wan is my coursemate.. younger than me 1 year:) then, i arrived at serdang ktm station at 845am.. good.. is within the time.. and wei leong come and fetch me to the college..haha, here there is a funny scene i would say.. i was waiting at the bridge while actually wei mun is also waiting for her fren to go back to UPM at the bus stop.. one up and one down and both of us dunno that we are actually are there.. until wei leong come and tell me only i realise.. hehe... feel so scary to sit motor at 80km/jam..hehe... a big thank you and heartfelt gratitude to him for his willingness to fetch me there.. purposely wake up and so so sorry to him that he only sleep like 4 hours?? so sorry ya.. really a good fren:) finally, i met with wan see... at 935am.. from the cafe, i walk with her to her room.. everything went well and both of us enjoy the time together.. i feel happy entering to her uni, her college and now her room.. because is like im being a part of her life here.. to know her life in uni... :) then, we depart and going to midvalley.. this is the hardest part.. because we have to take bus to her fac only got rapid to ktm station.. so, i curi masuk to their bus and reach someone near the fac.. which is opposite of the language faculty if im not mistaken? from there.. i think we waited for 1 hour ( i guess so) for the rapid..

this is the rapid sign at the bus stop there..

is so hard to get rapid there.. for the upm students, they have their own bus so poor wan see have to acc me.. but of cuz during the waiting time, we update each other with our news.. as i said, is been long that i haven't catch up with her.. so many to talk.. hehe.. finally the bus came and we took the train and reach midvalley.. since is already noon, so we decided to eat in domino.. because pizza hut is under renovation?? anyhow.. is a fun time.. basically, the whole journey is just talking.. but with a lot of laughter.. *wan see is my best fren whom i have know for 8 years plus and have been sitting beside her for 4 years plus 2 years in tuition centre.. last time, even though we sit beside, we still can chat non stop and call each other at night.. haha.. wonder why so many topics to talk.. hehe..both of us miss the time that we spent together so much.. *

this is photo taken in her room:P

this is the place we have our lunch.. haha.. opposite of mcD... guess where??

now that we are separated with a distance since we are now in different uni, however, i thank God that we still so close and keep in touch:) thank you, dear for accompany me to buy things.. finally we have something in common ya.. hehe.. that day i manage to buy what i wanted to buy.. except......... bag pack.. i really wan to buy one de.. but either i dun like the pattern or the price is too expensive.. hope that i can find one soon la:)

this is a very cute picture which i found in midvalley.. hello kitty entrance.. cute har...

we walked till 4pm and able to catch the ktm train and go back to my uni while she is going back home.. so miss her le.. feel that time really flies with her.. so much to catch up yet time is so short.. dear, must go out with u next time again:) at 7pm i need to be at CLC (campus life crusade).. because im the person in charge for today's event.. that is prayer and sharing.. quite a few things to prepare..so, i have a busy and pack day but meaningful and enjoyable:)

smiley day:)

i just upload the live traffic feed.. then only i realise there are quite a number of people read my blog.. hehe.. kinda surprise.

then i realise that i have been updating my blog with chinese words.. so sorry to those who dunno how to read chinese.. perhaps is time for them to know chinese.. hehe..so, faster learn chinese.... i really like writing in chinese because in chinese can be more sentimental but of cuz time taken will be very long..

just wan to post here to thank all my frens who have read my blog and encourage me with various ways.. thanks for the call, the sms and the support.. i just finish 2 of my major mid sem yesterday.. feel very happy and relieved.. and the assignments almost all are done.. left bowling tournament and the perception homework.. should be alright de.. although still got a lot programs running, i still can handle de.. of course with God's help..

one thing that im super happy.. im coming back to church this sat!!! i miss my bro and sis there.. of cuz miss sisters more la:P brothers dun jealous.. hmmm.. dunno whether they miss me or not le.. hehe.. i always feel home, church is my pit stop.. to rest and to refill..

that's all for my feeling's station today:D

沉默

有时沉默，是最好的方法。。
有时，我挺享受沉默。。

沉默时，
你才能听见上帝的声音，
周围的声音，
你的心声。。

所谓，此刻无声胜有声。。
这句话真的妙。。

朋友，感谢你的电话。
与你谈天是一件蛮快乐的事情 。。
加油咯，朋友！！

那天

那天, 爸爸从大学载我回家..半个小时的时间, 我觉得是最棒的时光.. 我向爸爸说我这星期发生的事情, 他都很耐心的听..然后给了我从不曾想过的看法.. 让我从中学习.. 爸爸的温柔, 细心..总是让我有安全感..

那天, 我妈载我回家..到家后, 她说了一句让我非常感动的话...其实, 那句话对你或对别人而言, 只是很平常的一句话..但听在我耳里, 却能暖化我的心.. 妈说..累了,就去休息吧! 别太累了..

那天, 牧师你温柔的拍拍我的头, 告诉我.. 累了, 就去休息.. 要好好的睡觉.. 好好的吃东西.. 简单的关心, 让我的眼泪在眼睛打转着..

那天, 你听到了我很累得声音..你打了通电话给我..你的语气透露了你的担心.. 让我感觉你的温馨..

那天, 你陪我去看戏.. 虽然,看戏时候并没有交谈..过后,也忙着做你的事情.. 但,我感谢你陪我去看戏.. 至少.. 我觉得有点轻松了..

那天, 你有事找我但我正在驾车..回复你的电话时, 你问了一句, melia, you sounds exhausted..短短的问候,让我觉得有你们的支持, 我可以做到的..

那天, 我打了通电话给你..电话里,并没有讲很久.. 只是向你说了.. 我此刻很想听到你的声音..你知道我累了..

有时, 疲惫时, 总是想要对我身边的朋友撒娇.. 呵呵..他们也一一接受了..朋友啊.. 总是那么的疼我..

累了.. 要休息.. 休息是为了走更远的路..