national day - time with family

today is holiday :) i have a lot.. a lot of homework not done yet..
but still i went to book fair with my parents and siblings..
simply because i really want to spend time with my family..
i hope to invest my time on them..
even just talking at home i feel is a luxury to me..
i feel that i long time never go out with them nor talk to them dy
so today going out is a good outing to spend time and chit chat :)
i salute my parents.. even after 25 years of marriage, they can still be so close and loving
while walking the bookfair, my parents hold hand and walk together throughout
(leaving us to walk along:P) then, my parents will always know each other strength and weakness that they willing to complement for one another.

early in the morning, i become the chauffeur to send han to prayer retreat place :)
then when she is done, i send her back.. haha..
sorry to someone that i always cut queue in fetching her..
too bad.. it depends the passenger want to sit whose car:P
{people always said becoming the passenger is the blessed one,
but sometimes becoming chauffeur can be blessed also..
depends who u fetch :) }
i enjoy the time with her..
thank you for accompany me for these few days.
all of the events will be ever remembered and stored in my memory..
-walking along the road.. eating asam beside the road...
-chit chatting in the car (luckily the CO din kill us both :P)
-buying food and eat.. eat... eat... u really can eat...just kesian ur wallet only
-standing at the balcony, counting the stars, feeling the wind breezing, chit chatting and celebrate our nation birthday..
-step into ur house again.. long time din go ur house dy lo..
how i wish the time will just stop at that moment..
han,
though u are sick, yet u still willing to come for my sake
for this, i truly appreciate it...
thank you for loving me...

updates on the last few days of august

a lot to update for the few days..
celebrating my fren, esther birthday on wednesday..
*is a very simple ones.. hope she like the present and the small celebration..*

thursday call up a fren at Sabah for her birthday...
*hope she is touched :)*

then surprise party for lee fan, lee yin..
but lee yin surprise us by not in the room:P
*twins... we appreciate ur presence in our midst..*

friday surprise for my Lui, her birthday..
end up she is not surprise but i know she is touched..
*at least i make up for the absenties last year, and wish her truly happy birthday..*
看到朋友们的感动，就是我最大的成就，最开心的事情:)

half way helping Lui's mom prepare the party,
went out to fetch my sisters..
they went to the bookfair.. so i suppose to go to KLCC to pick up them
from 510pm i depart till 720pm i still haven reach KLCC
i'm stuck at the road in front of PESS and before the tunnel..
that road cause me 2 hours..
my sister keep calling me and i answered.. i'm still at the fly over there..
terrible jam.. move 10 seconds and stop for 3 mins..
i even saw a man walk down from the car to go infront and have a look
then when he come back, my car not even move at all.. -.-"
thank God that my sisters willing to walk from KLCC to RHB (near the smart)
is very very far...
at first we thought as they walk and we drive (we = me+pui yen), we will meet half way..
that is why they keep walking.. till RHB.. if not i guess 4 hours also come back..
the worst jam in my life..

friday, my lecturer mentioned that it is healthy that when u wake up, the first thing to do is to drink a cup of water.. this brought me into memories...

i remember the first time staying ur house.. when i wake up, u bring me a cup of water..
saying the same thing also.. that time i feel very sweet and warm..
u said.. before drink milo, must drink a cup of water..
ur detailed and caring also make me so loved..
though i dunno will i still have the chance to drink the cup of water by u...
i will always remember the scene :)

the second time, is when i go to mission trip..
the caring department, every morning without failed, no matter how late we slept,
they will wake up earlier than us, give us a cup of water to drink when we wake up
so sweet right :)

除此以外...
那天，我的全身，至少有超过十万的细胞，因为某人而英勇牺牲了:p
虽然，是被打，但是，那种被打是不同的
就是那种，朋友之间的讥讽和zat，让你“受罪”的打
(我时常因为这样而受罪的）
所以是不痛的，因为你都会‘看’着来打
名义上，好像是我在陪你，实际上，是你在陪我
情绪低落，心情复杂，就只想找你，去倾诉还是找你来陪。。
你就会让我去发泄，去唠叨。。
那天的我，觉得很幸福，因为你。。
你可以用你的时间用在其他人，事情上
但是，感谢你把你的时间给了我
我很开心跟你一起哈拉的时光

从你在最后的言语，我听出了你对我的担忧
从你的眼神，我知道，你不放心我
我很感激，那时，你提出了那个建议
虽然，到最后，建议并没有实现
但是，在那一刹那，我真的很开心和感动的
我知道，至少还有你...
至少.....

ps: the suggestion is fulfilled by the someone finally.....
who feels guilty and claim to be empathy and who steal my purse and dun intend to inform me about it.. and now forced me to write something nice about the someone.. saying it is of kindness that someone helps me keep it..just to fulfill the someone id desire..

心情总站

feelings.. is very subjective... very abstract.. very unstable..
feelings come and go..

为什么我把这属于我的天地取名为my feeling's station??
因为在这里记载的都是
我的感觉
我的感触
我的态度
我的看法
我的感情
我的情绪
我的留言

这就是我的情绪站/心情总站

朋友们都说,我想很多
有时候,他们会说
别想太多了...
嗯..我有想很多吗??

人嘛..
思考是必然的
感受也是必然的
我喜欢某人说过
爱(繁体字)
就是用心去感受..(受字加上心 = 爱)

我喜欢纪录自己的情绪
喜欢在一天下来,
反思今天的一切,
想想要改进的地方
人, 要自我反省的..
今天的我,
成就了明天的我
希望明天的我是比昨天的我更好的

之前, 说过...
文字对我而言,
很重要的...
所以,凡是sms给我鼓励, 关心的话,
或是让我成长的话,
我都一一抄了下来..
现在, 已经是Nth本了
凡是,写给我的信,
我都把它好好的藏在我的宝贝盒里...

今天,我用文字
去完成了我的测验
看着考卷,
第一次觉得很无助
脑海空了
人生第一次觉得这样
是不是, 我不够用功呢?
为何,我记不起昨晚所背的一切
有点很失望..对自己失望了

写着的同时,
窗外传来滴滴答答的声音
这个时候,
又下大雨了
看着天上的乌云
今天的心情,有点像乌云
是灰色的..
忽然间, 想念了以前淋雨的时光
当雨点滴答在身上,
落魄的不是身体,
而是当时的心情
因为, 每当冲动淋雨,
就是心情需要被上帝的水
灌浇的时候了...

continuation saturday 22/8/09

~TO BE CONTINUED~

saturday night.. a night that i look forward to...
because... wan see and huey yen is going to come to my house to stay overnight..
hehe...
after youth, i pick up wan see then proceed to huey yen house
then together we stop by leisure mall.. Starbucks coffee..
honestly, i'm quite broke recently.. thanks to yen for belanja me coffee..
i like starbucks coffee but it is so expensive that it is a luxury to drink..
anyway, three of us buy three coffee then head to my house..

到我的家后，我们就直接到天台去了。
说真的，最近的生活忙碌，让我去天台的次数，少之又少。
今天，老友来到，我就有这么的机会到天台，吹风， 聊天。

古语说：美酒加美人是一大享受
韵璇说：咖啡加老友是人生一大享受（而且是Starbucks的）

看了她们俩写关于当晚的情节，
我想，以我的文笔，应该没能写得像她们这么贴切
所以，我只写当晚我的感受。
最近，看部落格的人都知道，
我很大压力..功课上的，考试的，生活上的..
但是在那天的晚上，
我的心情是完全放松的。
很想念这种感觉，有点像是回到了中学的时期。
没有顾虑的，开心的，抱着梦想的我们，聚集在一起聊天
当晚，我们聊了很多。
从我们的生活，到了从前，我们的朋友，梦想，政治，再回到了我们现在的生活
我想...老朋友，就是这样的吧！有聊不完的话题。
宁静在我们三个人而言，就像是太阳从西边出来一样。是不可能的吧！
哈哈..很享受整个过程..
这份友谊，真的很难能可贵..
希望二，三十年后， 我们还可以聚集在一起，这样的聊天

看我部落格的人，都懂婉希..
她依旧是那位直率，天真的女孩
在一起的时候，她总是那位开心果..
天真，不代表不成熟
只是她比我们多了那种对这世界的美
能成为她所依赖，信靠的人，
是我的荣幸.. :D
之前，就已经介绍她了..
预知更多详情，请看《为你》这部落

那晚的另一个主角，晖燕
是我从中一就认识的死党。
我们三人在初中一的时候，都是很close的朋友
她呀..就是坐在我隔壁的人
她呀..也是第一个，看到我的样子，会被吓到的人
她呀..比我还感性，文字抒发的造诣简直是无法用言语来形容
她呀..是一个很潇洒的人，或许是应为艺术家就是这样??
欣赏她的潇洒及固执（某些方面还好）
欣赏她的坚持与主见 :)
真的很感恩，让我认识了她
离开学校的我们，友谊比以前更好，更坚固了..

we chat till 2am, too cold so decided to go back to room.
from there... we continue chatting.. u must be wondering why we can talk non stop
i think this is the characteristics of girls.. haha..
i think till 4am only sleep.. 3 of us squeeze a queen size bed.. wow..is a miracle:P hehe
next morning fetch yen back home,
then see and i went to have breakfast together..
haha..2nd time eat breakfast together..
thank you for accompany till 2pm that day..
appreciate ur room and time for me..

~THE END~

some thoughts to share

today, i accidentally bump into Alice, my roommate..
is been a while haven't been meeting her..
i guess is because we are both busy..
it is always blessed to have her around...
when i met her, we non stop talking..
updating each other life and pouring out...
haha.. we have been staying together for a year...
a long of things, she und me just as i und her..
feel better talking to her.. i'm glad to have know her..
she is such a nice sister to be with me..
gambate ba, Alice.. we will together jia you de..

this week is really a tough week to go through..
having 3 ass to rush while 2 subjects got test in a week..
i told han..

*it is so easy... so easy to give up and lose heart,
however hanging on is tough but the right thing to do**

she replied.. *it's even harder to stand again after losing hearts than to hang on all the while*

but i think if u can stand again after losing heart and break down, u will soar even higher and walk further.. hanging on is good but will only stay at the level.. however, how many can actually stand again after break down???

tomolo is the test... gambate ba, all my frens who is having midsem.. jia you..

saturday 22/8/09 + my funeral

i log in and i log out..
the next day...
i log in and i log out...

i wanted to write a new post..
but just couldn't find the right mood to write
or...
couldn't find the time..
i dun like to rush my time in writing blog..

so, since today i so guai din do other things except study,
i shall reward myself in writing my blog as my only entertainment..

i shall write about saturday...
22/8/08

it is a busy saturday i would say..
going to ko-ko class which actually the lecturer said canceled but resume back
i still remember last week i was so happy that it was over..but...
is ok.. this is really the last time..

then, i go to midvalley.. the first time ever i drive there..
normally ppl fetch or take ktm..
together with me, Esther and Sue Yee
i was in front of midvalley but i couldn't find the entrance into the car park
so i suddenly go the wrong way and seeing midvalley getting further from me
panic?? yes.. scare?? yes.. but what can i do but to calm down
and see which way i know and U turn..
finally after turning here and there.. we find back the road and drop Sue Yee..
heading to midvalley... but i miss the turning and end up in the highway..
i was like... sigh... so near yet so far..
thank God that He gives me good common sense and that i found the way...
finally park my car in midvalley... at least i feel... finally i reach here...
bought a present there and then on the way home

reach home then go to church cleaning.
after church cleaning, buy grocery then go home
then go out again to fetch my Dd to park just to jog then go home again
at night went to youth cg then go home.
hmm... one day, i went in and out of my house for 4 times..
tired... is the only word to describe.. but.. enjoy every process except the journey to midvalley

during the youth group, Pastor Noah today preach about
LIVE LIFE TODAY AS IF YOU ARE DYING TOMORROW
i think this is not the first time i ever heard of this topic..
i remember seeing this phrase in one of the book i read
TODAY IS THE BEST PRESENT (GIFT)
so live life to the fullness today...

i have been asked many times...
when u die, what u wan ppl to remember u??
i think and think...
i wish people will remember me as...

• someone who loves God
• a friend that will go all the way for them
• a good friend, good sister, good daughter
• maybe my big eyes.. haha
  
• ME!!!

Ps Noah ask us.. since this is what u want, are u there yet??
hmm.. i hope i'm really on the way to reach my goal
as in ppl will view me as this....

i often think.. i wish i can see my own funeral...
i wish i can hear wat ppl say about me..
so, i already told my sister,
how my funeral conducted, all my frens letter to me must put into the coffin with me,
my sister must share during my funeral, must inform so and so to come if i pass away and etc..

will my funeral be alot of ppl?? i wonder..
will my frens all come for me??
will they cry badly???
maybe i shall ask God to give me a chance to attend my own funeral..
i wish i have done something in my life that ppl will be happy to know me in their life
i wish before i die, i have bless ppl around me and impact someone life

when u come to this world, the people around u rejoices while u cry
when u go back to heaven, the people around u cries while u rejoice...

something like that.. dun really remember the exact phrase..
this is my wish...hehe.. i think i wish too much for my funeral dy...
at least, i hope no one will be happy when i die...
haha...
because this is my wishes.. so therefore, i live my life now according to achieve wat i wish at the end of my life.

~TO BE CONTINUED~

开心的一天

today is quite joyful day
because i have decided to give myself a break and go out for a while
actually today i also on mission because have to buy somethings.
anyway, today after going to class, i drive back home
waiting my sister to drive me to times square...

today, i'm meeting with my lui and ex wife..
just to spend time with them
and... we watch "UP"
very nice and cute show..
haha.. it is the type of cartoon i like to watch..
talk a lot about adventure..
at first in the beginning, really feel that life is just so good..
is like this couple, happily ever after and no argument de..
love one another and so romantic even so old..
anyhow, i like one part of the show when Russell said..
this for u might sound boring, but this is the things that i remembered..

meaning.. in our life, not necessarily things that is happening or drastic that we remember..
maybe sometimes, things that is boring and mundane is the thing that we will remember after so many years later..
for example, someone has been there for u and always acc u do things.. nothing significant to remember. but after many years, u will still remember the little things he or she has done for u..
so dun ever look down the little things that u do for others.. u never know it means a lot to someone.

then, we go makan and shop.. because i need to buy somethings.. which is 4 things that i also dunno what to buy in particular..
i thank God for Sook Leng and Lui for helping me to choose and decide.. i feel so happy and blessed when someone decide for me.. haha.. i really dun like to decide la..
有她们帮我做选择, 是一件很幸福的事情..
我真的真的很不喜欢做决定.. 尤其是, 我不知道的决定..
她们就帮我选择, 我可以接受的决定.. 哈哈.. 真的很开心
因为有她们的帮忙,我很快就完成了我的任务了..
买了以后, 她们也会帮我检查..
所以啊.. 跟他们逛街, 真的很爽..

逛街后, 已经是7 点了..
在那刹那, 很不想.. 搭巴士回家
不想麻烦弟弟
脑海里, 就只有想到希
所以,就sms她了

她啊.. 总是愿意载我
让我觉得倍感窝心与感动
真的...
抵达轻快铁站的不久,
她就到了.. 然后,我们等她的妹妹放学,才送我回家

希..
一个我可以依赖的人
一个我可以麻烦的人
有很多人问我,
为什么我们可以这样的亲密
有点像是超出友谊一般
呵呵..
我们俩都清楚.. 我们是喜欢男生的
但是, 我们就是这么的好.. 这么亲密的好朋友

我觉得希已经不只是我的好朋友,
而是我的家人
我可以特地为她做很多
我可以随意去她的家, 她的家人都已经见怪不怪了
我可以随时找她, 知道她一定尽她的能力帮我
我可以跟她撒娇...
我希望这段友谊, 真的可以到永远
因为, 我无法想象没有希的日子要怎么过...
谢谢你, 希, 特地载我回家

写作 - 心情

我最近发现到...

原来, 每天都会有人浏览我的部落
或者说.. 每次我写的部落, 都会有人细心阅读
想到这, 心里满是感动...
因为, 喜欢写作...
所以, 遇到知音, 是一件很愉快的事
朋友的鼓励
是我继续写的推动力

我爱写... 我爱表达...
我喜欢去想... 有点哲学的问题
喜欢把自己的感受或体验
用文笔把它抒发出来
当笔尖落在纸张那刹那,
就是显现笔的用途
所以...
当用手把我的思绪打进电脑那刹那
就是我最快乐的时候

文字是最容易让我感动,
却也是最容易让我受伤...

最近,
我爱上了阅读别人的部落格
从每个人的人生,
总是学到,看到了很多..

今天,
我的心情一直飘着
想找个降落地
无奈,
世界这样大, 却没有它的容身地

堆积如山的功课
把我真的压得透不过气
功课的截止日期
犹如定时炸弹般一直在倒数
不会做.. 不明白...
还是要做...

从小就在压力下长大
面对压力, 不能退缩
只能够硬着头皮, 继续往前走...
不是我比别人坚强
而是, 退缩又能怎样...
路, 依然要走下去...

今晚, 又是一个不眠夜
加油吧!! 完成我的功课...
朋友们, 知道你们也一样的多功课..
在这里, 也为你们加油, 为你们祷告

events from last week till today

actually ever since last thursday there are many events happening..

thursday (13/8)
went to DG again.. haha.. because someone is there to duty ma.. so wait her to finish duty.. while waiting.. thank you ym for acc me.. if not, can be quite boring.. went to check talasemia test -RM2 by DNA lab.. long time din withdraw blood out of my body..feel a bit nervous in the beginning, after that is better.. the results will be out in 2 weeks time i guess... the gal there having some hard time to withdraw some of the people's blood.. because cannot find the vein.. i'm glad that mine is quite easy to spot and smooth while withdrawing the blood :)
then, went to fetch agnes.. the first time using her car to fetch her :P

is our dinner with psychology students.. coursenite.. normally is third year, second year and first year together.. but this time is only second year and first year.. it is a casual makan time together, to fellowship and to get to know each other.. 18 of us in second year psychology course hardly have a chance to go out together except this day.. all are present except grace :) because she has things t do.. not much activity but i still like the atmosphere of us being around together.. and to know juniors more..i'm very happy to have and to know this bunch of course mates or they are more like frens and family member to me.. because studying the same course, we have to help one another and in anything, we work as a team..i was an outsider that only join them later yet they never treat me as outsider.. for this, i'm grateful... i'm glad that our friendship is built and i hope it will be getting closer and closer for the next 2 years..

friday (14/8)
early in the morning went to Pavilliion UKM to attend the HAri Interaksi Pusat Psychology... yesterday only sleep at 4am and have to wake up early.. really early..basically, i go there to do exercise only..senamrobik.. is good also since long time din exercise. after an hour, rush for class..

at 12pm, agnes and i in my sister's car to HKL to visit our dear friend, See Hoe.. it took us some time to find the place and low and behold.....See Hoe is discharged and went back home.. haha.. then have lunch with wai han, ym and kah kit.. while waiting my sister to fetch me back home, i meet up with Hui Hui and a guy (unknown) medic student. He suddenly come and talk to us and we chatted like half an hour?!! ok.. now i remember teacher told us not to talk to strangers:P but quite ok to chat with..

5pm, reach home... tonight the church youth is having BBQ at my house as a farewell to Alexis aka Wai Kuan..thank you for all the youth in preparation.. thank you Dad & my brother to help me settle the problem of raining.. though there is a bit messy, i guess everyone enjoyed it.. and the chicken and the burger is really nice.. did managed to spend time with pastor noah and share some thoughts.. agnes is staying over at my house:)

saturday (15/8)
thank you theng, to fetch me and agnes back to UKM for class.. every sat, i just feel so reluctant to go to class.. just for the 2 hours.. then take ktm back.. met aunt(hsiang's mom) and his sister.. such a coincident.. and to my surprise, they still can recognise me despite 2 years we haven't be seeing each other.. i think my face never change.. haha..

plan to eat with dear de.. but last minute, she cant make it due to some sudden thing happen.. so have to postpone the lunch with her to dinner instead..

church cleaning and come back home.. at night, went out with see and yen to yum cha.. at papa rich.. just hang out and chit chat.. though is just normal activity, it means so warm and sweet to my heart.. i think is because the person that u are spending time with makes a lot of different..

sunday (16/8)
went to church and to wai han house.. it just dawn upon me to suddenly to find her and to discuss something with her... most of the conversation with her this time, is silent... but i feel at least she is there, going through with me that calms me and gives me much peace.. no solution at the end but feel better at least..

monday (17/8)
went back UKM.. did go to DG again to acc my sister to pesta konvo and see how is it.. and also Hui Hui duty today.. so go to find her a while.. then, have to rush for class..
today met 3 old frens.. really long long time din meet de.. yet they can still recognise me and call me by name.. honestly, i was shock.. so, is good that my face never change that ppl can still recognise me.. haha..
at 7pm, albert fetch me to airport together with Rachel and deniece.. to say goodbye and sent off, Alexis, Wai Kuan.. she is going to study abroad in US.. really bu she de to see her leave.. same age with me, yet so mature and dynamic gal.. admire her character alot.. our cg gonna miss her a lot.. reach airport, have to wear mask again.. until now, i only wear twice.. one during HKL and this is the second time..
too tired.. fall asleep very early.. wake up at 3am.. when i on my desk light, i think i woke up my roommate.. feel so sorry to her..

Tuesday (18/8)
woke up late.. 8am class.. and 750am only wake up.. luckily still manage to catch the bus..
here i am now, writing blog before start doing my assignmentSSSS... really have to hardworking and start to do dy.. if not, deadline is so soon and it will kills me.. jia you ba...

恋爱??

21岁了, 还没有初恋?? 有什么稀奇呢?? 我觉得还好的.. 如果.... 因为恋爱而恋爱的感情, 我不要 因为空虚寂寞而恋爱的感情, 不会长久 因为你对我好而恋爱的感情, 不会幸福 因为每个人都有男朋友而恋爱的感情, 不会珍惜 我相信感情是要你情我愿的 我相信感情是一辈子,能托付终生的 我想要的, 是一个爱上帝, 爱我的人而我也爱他的 是一个可以接受我是我的人 是一个我能依靠, 而他了解我的人 我不想随便的开始 只因为 感情 - 是我最玩不起的东西 所以, 你爱我就请认真的爱我 有时候, 靠得太近, 反而看不清楚 有些距离, 才可以看到整幅图画 感情也是一样 有一点点的距离是好的

有意思的几句话

有时候 不是对方不在乎你 而是 你把对方看得太重了

ps: 是否应该别把你看得太重??
那么我就不会觉得你不在乎我??

朋友就是把你看透了 还是喜欢你的人

ps: 感谢你们依然爱我,疼我

付出真心　才会得到真心 却也可能伤得彻底　　
保持距离　就能保护自己 却也注定永远寂寞 　　

ps: 但是在这两者之间, 很难达到平衡点

真正的好朋友 并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
而是在一起　就算不说话 也不会感到尴尬

ps: 所以, 宁静有时也是很好的沟通工具
享受宁静...享受在你旁边的感觉

没有一百分的另一半 只有五十分的两个人

ps: 因为这样才会有完美的一百分

我觉得这几句都形容得蛮贴切的。

first time eating dim sum at night

since i already said i will post a blog,
then i will do what i said .. haha

basically, nothing much...
just that...
this is the first time in my life that i ever eat dim sum at night
haha.. i know this sound a little bit funny
act i also not sure whether this is the first time
but as far as i know this is the first time la..

i didn't know dim sum got at night de..
cuz i only eat during day time,early morning..
for me, dim sum supposedly eat during morning time de..
because of this, i have been teased and laughed by the two fella
sigh... got one thing at their hand for them to 'zat' me tim
anyway,

it has been wonderful and good time just to eat dim sum with they both
hehe, it has always been wonderful with them
though today waited for like 2 hours at DG..
and drive all the way... just for her..
of cuz.. everything is worth while de.. :)
hope she feels touched :P
every moment has been so enjoyable simply because
of the person that i'm spending time with
haha.. missing her now
and wanna thank you A for the vehicle..

我在国大的造就者

又是快乐星期三 :)

今天, 很开心能和美玲一起吃午餐.. 上一次和她共吃午餐已经是很久的事情了 与她相处那短短的一个小时, 总是让我觉得很窝心,很开心 她-- 在我进入国大之前就认识了 那时候, 幸亏有她陪我度过那段难挨的日子 感谢她, 给了我很多建议和鼓励 让我今天能有这样的机会就读心理学 很感激那时候的她 帮我这位陌生人 我们一直都是以电话沟通 直到两个星期后才正式见面 她总让我觉得被爱, 让我知道我并不孤单 在她面前,就会情不自禁的说出内心的挣扎 这一年来, 感恩有她 在大学处处的照顾我 也让我在属灵上成长

 这就是美玲和我 今天, 我看了我的朋友写的部落格 取名为 一封感人的信 很感动哦... 阿爸天父, 对不起, 我时常冷落你 时常让你等 我太不孝了.. 你对我的爱, 给我的耐心 是没有人能给的 爸,谢谢你 谢谢你的爱 若我说你是我的第一,我的唯一 那么, 一天24小时 都应该把大部分的时间都给你 爸, 从今以后 我会尽量每时每刻都找你 每时每刻都与你谈天 每时每刻都把你放在我人生的第一

my prayer of the day

Words i confess daily

• I am a child of God
• God is my ever Father, my daddy God
• God loves me just the way I am
• God lives in me and I in Him
• I am fearfully and wonderfully made by God
• I am created by God for every good work
• God has called me and chosen me as His own
• God is changing me everyday to be more like Him
• I am a person of great purpose and destiny
• I am given talents, gifts and abilities by God
• I am able to achieve great things in God
• Ia m abounding in grace and hope
• I am blessed and powered to succeed in life
• Greater is God in me than the devil in the world
• I don't have to be afraid of anything for God is with me
• Every bad habit I have is loosing control over me
• Even my enemies are at peace with me
• God is thinking good thoughts about me right now
• God is planning the paths that will lead me to my purpose
• I have visions and dreams from the Holy Spirit regularly
• I am led daily by the Holy Spirit
• I will walk in good health and live a long life
• I will prosper financially in life
• I love Jesus wholeheartedly
• I love people fervently
• Jesus loves me forever

I found all these in a bookmark which i think is good to proclaim the blessings of God into our lives daily. it is also serve as a reminder and affirmation of who we are in Christ. :)

Thank God for loving me and always be there for me. Thank you Abba Father for strengthening me when i'm weak. Lord, allow me to be able to seek you and find you as i need you so much now. In Jesus name i prayed and asked, Amen.

我最爱的姐姐

今天是fac night, 原本我真的就打算穿牛仔裤去了

因为我不喜欢打扮:P 不喜欢特地为一个晚宴打扮 我知道这样不好.. 也知道姐姐一定不会答应.. 哈哈 也要给面子我的朋友--en wan & lee fan 所以, 我选择回家.. 我很感恩, 真的很感谢 有一个这么好, 非常棒的姐姐 她特地叫弟弟在轻快铁站载我 然后, 回到家后, 她就已经为我想好fac night要穿什么 甚至从耳环, 项链, 手表, 手链, 鞋子 她已经为我准备好了.. 她还让我驾车回来大学

这是我姐姐为我打扮的 我真的很感动.. 姐姐她真的真的很疼我 从小到大, 我都那么的庆幸能成为她的妹妹 认识我的人, 都知道我有多么崇拜我姐 从小, 她就是我的榜样 总是很想成为另一个她 因为我觉得世界怎么会有那么完美的人.. 那么的漂亮, 那么的聪明 我很感激有她在我生命里 因为她成就了今天的我 因为她是我的推动力 我的一点完美主义原自以她 我的领导能力也是从她而来的 她总是看顾我, 教导我.. 或许因为这样, 我潜意识中就很依赖她 我的发型, 我的穿着 你就会发现, 很像她.. 呵呵.. 因为都是她为我决定的.. 我记得 当年她有可能要到新加坡深造 那时候的我, 每想到她要离开, 就会哭一次 现在, 长大了, 或许不会再哭了.. 但是, 我觉得我还是不能离开她 因为, 就没有人为我做决定了, 没有人为我配搭衣服了 有一次, 有人问我, 谁在我生命里有最大的影响力? 我想了又想 答案是... 我的姐姐 只要她认同, 我会无顾虑的去做 如果她有意见, 那么我可能就不去做了 她也帮助我在上帝内成长 就因为她能为神豁 出去 所以, 我也是一样.. 上帝的不能, 就是不能 上帝的唯一, 特权, 就是我的唯一.. 姐, 谢谢你... 我从来不会妒嫉她 因为她就是这么的好, 这么的疼我.. 在我经济有困难, 姐会救济我 在我不知道如何时, 姐会开导我 姐是最了解我的人 她总是知道我心里面想的是什么 她总是知道我真正需要的是什么 写到这里, 我的眼泪已经不能控制的流了下来 我哭了.. 并不是伤心.. 而是很感动.. 很感恩我的姐姐

姐, 我爱你... 我希望你永远幸福快乐

从fac night回来, 有点累.. 但是, 却不想睡觉... 看了你的部落, 我觉得很开心,窝心 因为你期待我等下的到来 :) 其实, 我也很期待尽快的看到你... 迟一点才 upload fac night的照片吧 !!

上不到网的烦躁

面对着电脑.. 很懊恼...
昨天, 等了4个小时,
按了无数次的f5,
还是依然没有走动
我能做的,
除了叹气, 还是叹气
到最后, 我放弃了

今晚, 也是等了2个小时,
一样的不能进到那个网站
进不到, 就找不到我的东西
就做不到功课

功课一天一天的增加, 累积
好像永远赶不完
有点大压力了
有点喘不过气了...

幸好,
有她在,
帮我传紧急e-mail
至少,
完成了一些东西

希望,
明天网会更好吧

happy wednesday - an old fren called, warming the heart

happy wednesday :)
because this is the one day i have free time from 10am till 530pm..
i enjoy this period of time.. doing nothing in particular..
hehe...

this morning my old fren.. hehe, i would really like to categorize her in this old fren category.. called me at 12something in the morning.. and we chatted for like an hour.. actually the day before that, din sleep cuz rushing assignment, but chatting with her, i dun feel tired at all.. i guess she is one of the few that will like to call me at this kind of time.. after graduate from secondary school, i really feel that our friendship has become closer.. and hope that this friendship will last till we meet in heaven..

nothing in particular that we chat.. but we can keep talking and talking.. from one issue to another issue and then come back the same issue again.. talking to her, always make me so relax, so enjoyable.. nothing to hide, as she dy know who am i... from the first day i met her, i think i have not change much... haha.. phlegmatic people dislike changes..

she is a girl that has her own style, unique and have her stand in whatever she believes and things she does.. i'm grateful to have know her.. thank you for her support and her helping especially in my lowest point of my life.. we have nothing in common because i think we are like from different world except the passion we have in writing blog and in chinese and also the point of view of a friend or best friend.. i'm happy and honored whenever she said you are different ma, because u are my true fren and her openness to share her problem with me..

haha.. she complained that i never write about her in my blog.. well well, i do remember writing this special girl in my blog just that it was long time ago i perhaps :P gal, u know that u can always count on us in ur life.. forget about those who dun really care or being skeptic to u.. use the love in u to spread it around and even to love those unlovely :P it is not easy, not fair.. but this is what JEsus wants us to do, isnt it?? :) and of cuz, i'm always there to lend u my listening ear and allow u to be who u are..

八月的第一个周末

星期四的晚上......

我很兴奋的期待明天.. 因为.. 我可以与她们一起出去... 因为.. 我可以去看戏... 

哈哈.. 很久没出去看戏了..

星期五 早上- 去上课

下午-

• 和 wai han & agnes 到谷中城看戏 ~ overheard~..
• (虽然是迟进场, 但是还是很享受这部电影, 结局还蛮惊喜的.. 虽然并不是皆大欢喜的结局, 不过, 至少不是悲剧, 我还可以接受 :p)
• 宠自己的 - 买了 RM 6.80 的雪糕来吃
• 赶回去 (其实, 还慢慢走着去:P) 听星期六去field work 的 taklimat
• 时间很赶, 很感谢她们就是愿意的陪我...

到达UKM时, 已经迟了45分钟.. 呵呵..教授没生气 (因为星期四已经告诉他我会迟到)

晚上-

• 从宿舍搭巴士到火车站, 然后弟弟在bts 接我, wai han & agnes 回家..今天,他们将在我家过夜..
• 我们约好到看夜景的地方 - look up point - 吃晚餐 :)
• 其实, 在agnes 生日时, 就答应她, 会带她到那里吃晚餐.. 所以, 我们有个美好的晚上.. 就是, 享受夜景, 享受我的西餐 (呵呵.. 我终于可以吃到西餐了), 享受彼此谈笑风生的时间...享受在那一刹那的幸福...
• 晚上,我们谈了一会儿, 上网玩游戏一会儿, 就躺下去.. 睡着了...

星期六 早上6:45 闹钟响, 超级不想起床.. 所以, 赖床了..哈哈 7:30 wai han & agnes 就回去半三芭了 而我.. 就在妈妈的接载之下, 到了sentul, 做field work 8:30抵达现场.. 等待我的coursemate and lecturers到来 10:00 他们终于到了 10:00早上到5:30 下午 - 就是走啊走啊...每一楼, 有可能是华人的家,我都敲过了.. ~ 真的学习很多, 体验很多.. 原本以为5份问卷, 算得了什么.. 结果, 在sentul, 95%马来人的地区, 要找到华人, 而且是22-25 之间的青少年真的是少之又少.. 在6个小时的走啊走, 我觉得我的脚已经没有知觉了, 终于完成任务了.. 其实, 有几位华人年轻人, 但是, 就是不愿意帮忙 或者远远看到我们, 就已经关门了.. 我并不怪他们.. 因为是人之常情..好累.. 好累... 差一点就撑不下去了...~ 也因为拖延了很久, 并不能如原定计划回到教堂.. 所以,就直接到YES 08 gathering..Elizabeth's home.. there, we eat, we share, we chat.. it is always good to gather once again.. though it has already been one and a half year, is just nice to see how each and everyone doing and to share testimony that will encourage one another.. i enjoy the time together.. enjoy the laughter and the jokes.. enjoy the testimony that really stir my heart.. i hope we can meet again soon :) 昨天, 就是很不想回家..不知道为什么..忽然间, 就有个念头.. 到娴家过夜.. 得到了爸爸的同意后, (真的很不可思议.. 我爸竟然允许我到朋友家过夜..) 我就这样到她的家过夜了.. 很随性的.. 什么都没有带, 就过夜了.. 有点好像离家出走, 就带着一个背包去了.. 或许太累了吧, 情绪很波动..忽然间的高, 忽然间的低..所以,在她家过夜, 至少有她的陪伴, 我觉得平静很多.. 真的很谢谢她收留我, 谢谢她陪伴我, 谢谢她用行动上疼我,爱我..很喜欢与她一起走回家的感觉,就很像以前陪她走回家的时候... 星期日 - 去了教堂... 回的时候, 很感激希特地来载我回家..就是, 很冲动的, 任性的不想等巴士.. 谢谢她对我的疼爱... 洗衣, 扫地, 洗厕所后.... 好累.. 好累... 要睡觉了. 好想.. 好想.. 什么都不做...