痛～

很久。。在我记忆里。。这种痛。。很久没来了。。

今早，一起来。。头开始疼了。。

太久没有的痛，让我一时忘了它-偏头痛

那霎那，我只能告诉自己。。没有事的。。

我依靠上帝的力量一定可以熬过的。。

因为，偏头痛不只是生理的痛，更是心理的战争。。

如果，我觉得我被它打败。。那么，我将会痛很久很久。。

所以，我一直说服自己。。上帝与我同在。。

无论如何，我相信上帝是万能的。。

但是，人是脆弱的。。

当我一个人面对时，很容易就撑不下了。。

因为，往事的回忆痛。。。让我怕。。

在短短2个小时，就呕 了2-3次。。。

在我就快撑不下时。。 上帝差遣了她。。。

谢谢你， 希。。。

大老远的载我看医生，陪我还书，帮我买午餐和晚餐，督促我吃药，帮我按摩等。。

让我慢慢的睡了。。

你的陪伴给了我精神上的支持。。。

睡醒后。。我感觉很多了。。

没有那么的痛了。。。

所以。。今天躺了一整天。。

第一次。。在大学生涯里。。没有去上课。。。

大学第三年

12-7-10开学了。。
第三年，也是我的大学最后一年。。
我们一大群的第三年生都不能适应这种转变。。
第三年了，就要毕业了。。
就连学弟，学妹们找我们签名时，他们都说第三年的学长学姐们很难找。。
无论我们喜欢与否，我们是第三年了。。
身为第三年生，没有什么特别。。
功课也是一样多。。（其实更多），课照上，照样出去玩。。呵呵。。
但是，我们多了一份将要离别的感觉。。

大学三年了。。
刚进来时，什么都不懂。。
离开家里的安乐窝。。什么都要重新开始。。
现在的我们，
比刚进来时，多了一份踏实感，多了很多的友谊，无论是在宿舍或学院
认识了一群很要好的朋友，甚至是一家人。。
想到毕业后，大家将会很少很少联络，不长见面的感觉，实在有点难过。。
天下没有不散之宴席，这个道理懂。。但是，心情难免会有一些的惆怅。。
所以，剩下的大学时光。。我们都会好好的把握在一起的时间。。
最近就有很多一起出去吃晚餐的约会。。
想必大家都想有一个美好的回忆留下吧～

第三年，将要写出我的论文。。
其实只是比较基础的论文而已。。
但是，却有一定的压力。。因为都是个人的作品去研究某某课题。。
而且还是6个unit那么多。。
想了，交了我的题目。。。
上帝啊。。
希望我的论文题目能被通过。。也能被分发到我想要的老师那里。。

今年
会是一个很特别的一年。。因为这
是一个让我走出我的舒适地带的一年。。
是一个让我学习很多的一年。。
是一个让我完全依靠上帝的一年。。
是一个人生起落很大的一年。。
是一个很多改变的一年。。

加油吧，璇～～
加油吧，我的朋友们～
依靠上帝的力量让我一步一步的征服它。。。

comfort at times

someone handed me this last few weeks...
I feel moved by the words.. God always at His own timing know what is the best for us..

***
Never doubt your abilities.
Never let anyone or anything make you feel less than what you believe you are.
Never feel you cant walk another step further.
even if you feel you're stumbling, keep your head straight on.
Know in your heart that nobody can hurt you, unless you let them do so.
Never lose faith in yourself...
Because who you are is someone special...
***

Thanks Deniece.. your gift comes at the time where i needed much encouragement and also affirmation..

Today in the service, Rev Francis all the way from India shared something..

*2 Corinthians 4: 18
~So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.~

so many times, we tend to focus on things we can see.. like clothing, food etc...
all these things are temporary and doesn't matter..
in this bible verse, i have learn that we should focus things that is unseen for example... God, relationship, virtues, kindness, love etc...
God who is so big... so strong.. so mighty...
If we surrender everything to Him, He will definitely take care of us..
then what shall we fear? what should we worry....

i read on Evon's blog..
she put it nicely... and quoted a bible verse..

God says, "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?-Matthew 6:26"

God continues, "See how lilies of the field grow. They do no labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon(one of the King during the Old Testament in the Bible) in all his splendour was dressed like one of these.-Matthew 6:28,29"

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his(or her) life?-Matthew 6:27"

He gives us His promise to take good care of us.. we shouldnt have to worry:)
Just Trust in Him....

some thoughts

if one day God ask you...

"I give you one million dollar, u want??"

what will your answer be??

someone ask me this question and without any hesitation i say..
i want..
cuz.. God ask wor.. sure say want ma...

but there is one person who says...
"God, i dont want that one million dollar.. I want a million soul.."

wow.. i feel so ashamed when i hear this..
i mean..i never thot of that answer..
just like when King Solomon told God.. i don't want all the wealth etc.. I just want wisdom to rule your people..

same question different answer..
the answer is different because.. it shows.. how close you walk with God to know His will
i think God has use this to inspire me..

my prayer today..
Lord.. give me the one million soul...
Holy Spirit... refresh in my life that i can be close friend with you..
I hope every moment i walk with you..

someone told me..
God the Father, Jesus the son, Holy Spirit can be define as...

God the Father = sun
Jesus = the light
Holy Spirit = the heat..

you cant really see the sun, but u see the glory of the sun..
just like you cant see the God, but u know God exists and you can see His glory..
Jesus come to this world.. as a light..
you can see light...
Holy Spirit is the heat.. you know there is heat.. u can feel it.. but u can see it..
can u have God, Jesus and ignore the Holy Spirit?
as to say... can u have the Sun, the light and ignore the heat??

you cant.. what will the world be without the heat?? u feel cold..
therefore we need the Holy Spirit...
Holy Spirit i need you for You're so important, so vital in my life..
i might feel nothing in the beginning when i lose You..
but as time goes by.. i know i will be freezing.. too cold..
i cannot survive without you...
Come, Holy Spirit... Fall on me now...

~this is my prayer today~

last part of my holiday...

Kluang trip ( 11-13th June) something i have planned quite sometimes to bring my gals... the secondary youth in my church to go down to explore themselves,bonding and also to take chance to serve in a shelter home... 3days 2 nights.. i have an enjoyable with the gals.. with Aunt Janet, Uncle Chiu, Kah Heng, Albert, Deniece and Joye's help.. everything went on smoothly.. through this trip, i can see their enthusiasm and their care.. i hope that they have caught much in this trip and friendship can be bonded:)

went hiking the first day... at Gunung Lambak

our breakfast at the famous Kluang Station Railway

ministering in the Agape Shelter Home.. i'm personally touched by the children.. for their strong hearts inregardless of what circumstances..and their cheerfulness..

makan makan...

i need to take opportunity to thank Lee Fan and Lee Yin's parents for lending a house for us to stay and without charging us any fee.. really grateful to have them.. Besides, they still give us a treat... such kind hearted family.. God bless you all...

this photo taken on the last day at Ps Kelly in law house:)

 

Broga trip (2nd July) broga hill.. i heard many people go here to hike, but never go myself.. this Broga Trip is actually our form 6 gathering.. though most of the people cant make it.. but got 10 of us.. consider quite good dy... thanks to Yoon Ming, this is my first experience to hike.. somemore early in the morning.. and i can see sun rise.. so so nice.. i mean.. is worth it... thanks to Khar Keong in leading the way in darkness... well.. if u ask me, i will feel.. is not that hard in hiking Broga.. maybe the hardest part is the nearing 4th peak there.. Thanks to all the gentlemen too... that makes the hiking so smoothly.. really enjoy myself..

10 of us on the 2nd peak...

taken when almost the sun rises..

at the peak between 3rd and 4th...after struggling up:P

i like the natural view.. so so so nice...

the three pretty gals:P Mei May, me and Agnes

top of the hill... puncak...400m height, 1.7km journey

this is the homemade certificate:P

Exercise Day (3rd July)

 haha.. no picture of exercise.. just the photos of what we eat after exercise.. the we is wan see, huey yen, lee miin and suet fun.. haha.. fat fat fat.... but is nice to do exercise...make me feel healthy and good... in the between of kluang trip and the Broga hill.. i went out with friends... meet up with Ying Ling.. old time fren.. out with siew wah..before she depart to UK.. meet up with wai han and agnes... just hang out, shop..celebrate someone's birthday.. out with wan see.. to watch toy story 3 and karate kid.. nice movie!! stay overnight... out with huey yen, suet fun, lee miin, wan see... celebrate my grandma birthday.. i think is 72 大寿.. im amazed.. on this special occasion.. just my grandma children and grandchildren can sit 6 tables le..2 multiply to become 18 children and in law and 23 grandchildren... i really grateful for my grandmother who has taken care of me ever since im young.. thank you... in less than a week time.. i have to say bye bye to my holiday.. 3rd year-my final year is starting next monday.. 2 months of holiday pass so soon le... like do nothing tim.. memang do nothing..cuz.. this holiday i really enjoy, rested... so... 3rd year here i come...