so long, farewell ps noah and family

today... ps noah, florence and baby Gianne go back to KK, Sabah... i wanted to sent them off.. but because i have class.. i cant.. my heart was quite sad and burdened when i know they are leaving.. however, deep down my heart, i know God is in control and His plan is perfect... when i first know them, i was just 12 years old..maybe.. they weren't married that time.. they used to say.. "melia, when i first know you, you are still that young, small and still wearing dress" haha... ya, about 10 years.. they literally see me grow from a girl to a teenage and now young adult... they definitely witness my growing process, walk through journey with me especially recent years.. they leave a such big impact in my life.. throughout my life journey, florence accompany me alot... as a cell leader, she cares, she understands and she always embrace me with her love.. so many phone calls and heart felt cry pass by because she is there to affirm and to comfort me.. in my recent years, ps noah guide me and mentor me.. he trusts me and believing in me.. he allowed to fall, to get up again.. he gives me time to grow, and always have such big room for me to hide myself.. this 2 years, baby Gianna come to this world.. having the same birthday as im.. sweet little girl that bring so much joy to us.. this family is such a blessing to so many youths here...including me.. their leaving is such a sad farewell to us.. but we know... our path will definitely meet again and i know.. farewell, goodbye doesnt end here... we'll still stay in touch and keep contact.. memories will stay and ps noah, florence.... i always look up to u and i will always will.. i will miss you a lot.... take care and the youths there are blessed!!

Ps Noah, Florence, baby Gianna and me

生命的小小插曲

最近，很喜欢把生活的小点滴记录起来。。。
因为，少了理所当然，多了一份感激的心。。

那天，遇到mei ling，谢谢你的鼓励。。
没想到你也会看我的部落格。。蛮惊讶的。。

小学聚会在只有10个人的情况下，结束了。。
虽然人数少，但是久久不见，互相叙旧的感觉真好。。
聊了小时候，聊了同学们的近况，玩游戏。。
想不到。。我们已经小学毕业了十年。。。

很感恩有这么的机会帮jin shyan, sabrina, wei wei, camilia洗礼。。
对我而言，是那么的荣幸。。

这几天，生病了。。很久没有像这样那么的难过。。
熟悉的症状开始出现了。。
伤风，咳嗽，喉咙痛，轻微发烧。。
什么都不想做，却偏偏都需要我做的。。
感恩有人疼，有人的问候关心。。。
那么，就算生病都会有点的窝心。。

感谢父母，就算多累。。都载我回大学。。
我很享受那35分钟的时间。。。

感谢希陪我熬夜了。。
时不时就陪我聊天的。。。
若不是，以我这三不五时就咳嗽，吸着鼻水，就超想睡。。。

谢谢我的室友的体谅。。
原谅我在你就寝时，还在滴滴答答的敲打着我的键盘，吵醒你了。。
抱歉，在赶着功课。。。。

很感恩有至少那三十分钟与晶聊天。。
虽然，我知道那削剥了你那读书的时间。。
好久没和你谈天，和你叙旧。。。
呵呵，虽然有点不想那么的早起，但我觉得和你聊天还蛮开心的。。

回到房间。。。
赶功课的压迫感，不会做的挫败感。。
让我实在不想动手敲打键盘。。
所以，我选择好好对待自己，享受了我的早上。。。

冲调了我最爱的美祿。。。吃着饼干。。
拿了一本故事书，在音乐的陪伴下。。。
读了起来。。。
这是我最喜欢做的事。。就一本我喜欢的书，听着音乐。。
所以，我以后的男朋友，一定也要喜欢看书哦。。。

打了通电话给娴，有了一个很愉快的通话。。
嘻嘻哈哈的聊天，谢谢妳。。。
我爽了。。

接下来，要以愉快的心情，完成那不可能的报告。。。
一份报告80页。。。这个学期就要完成3 份。。。
这真不是容易的事啊。。。

加油，最后一个星期了！！

好弟弟

超爽的。。。
弟弟请客。。。
虽然只是简单的一餐，但弟弟说要叫什么，就叫。。
所以，外加了雪糕和糖水。。
哈哈。。。
弟弟最棒！！

一直以来，弟弟对我们都很好，很贴心，有风度。。。
超爱他的。。。

幸福了。。。

*有你存在的站就是幸福的* (下一站，幸福 的其中一个对白） 你告诉了我这一句话。。让我觉得很感动。。。 很窝心。。我会记得的。。 因为，你这句话肯定了我。。 幸福或许可以很简单。。 我从来没有很大的期望， 只是一个要求很简单，也很容易满足的小女孩。。 外表的能干与刚强，是因为基本的生存条件 其实，我要的东西很简单。。 只是，你选择给我吗？？ 你有心去知道我要的是什么吗？？

a love message by my beloved daddy

for those who has meet up with my dad, the first impression will be.... your dad very fierce..din smile de... haha.. my dad's face looks serious.. and he is a serious person when he is working... he did the best in whatever he does... but he is a humorous man.. i will laugh when he crack the humor.. not the lame jokes:P i like to talk to my dad about all sorts of things.. in front of my dad, i will be a little why girl.. why like that de... why like this de... i just enjoy to talk to him.. everytime, he will have most of the answers.. unlikely he will say he dunno.. my dad, the concept man... but when he really dunno, he will ask.. i admire his humbleness.. i rarely have time to talk to him.. as he is busy most of the time... so, sometimes i will wait for him to eat dinner... or.. just purposely wait him come back just for few minutes of talk... im closer to my dad... but though i like to talk to him, we never communicate in letters and hardly i mean hardly through sms as well.. my dad hardly express how he has loved us, how much he pours out for this family.. the most my dad type is just take k..daddy loves u.. i mean for this msg my dad sent i will keep it till now and still feel touched dy... 

 yesterday....my dad sms me..the longest msg daddy ever type for me.. 

  "Melia, i feel very proud of u for scoring the highest mark & getting awarded this wednesday but very sorry i cant attend. hope u can keep at the top & looking for the best then i can attend the next awarding day. i believe u can do that. daddy always backing & support u." 

 ok.. i want to cry liao.... ever since i can remember.. parents never come to witness those award i have taken.. normally i will take back and they will say congrats and the trophy put it aside.. i always feel... sad and disappoint.. because.. family is there while my frens..their whole family will be there to see her take the trophy... i understand my parents are busy... but feelings..cant be controlled... coming to UKM, i have taken the first time in my life, being awarded academically... i never was the top student.. i mean my parents never put pressure on us whether to score or not also...so i just do what i can and that's the best result lo... today...taking the trophy and awarded for being the top student.. friends will be there to see me take and to receive dad's msg... im so happy and very happy.................seems like no regret in life dy...:)

慢慢的好起来。。

休息了一段时间。。
我觉得我渐渐的好起来了。。
虽然，有时候还是很容易跌下去。。
但是，是时候要站起来。。
在哪里跌倒，就在那里站起来。。
要告诉自己，是时候站起来，而不是享受着低潮的时候。。
我只是一个凡人。。所以，别对我的期望过高。。。
我只能说。。给我时间。。我会好起来的。。
我靠着上帝的力量，而非我的能力。。。

有时候，遇到问题，
很想做一头缩头乌龟或是鸵鸟
但是，这样真的很不负责任，不成熟。。
太多事情，我依赖着自己的经验，感觉，能力
而忘记了阿爸天父一直都在我旁，心疼我一直把担子往身上扛，而不要交托给祂。。
友人们曾说我是一个计时炸弹。。
收太多，总有一天会爆。。
果然，有天并不是爆炸，而是崩溃了。。

雨过天晴，一直是我相信的。。。
我相信彩虹。。是上帝给我们的承诺。。
但是，有时候雨后没有彩虹，或者是我看不见彩虹。。
但是，我靠着的不是肉眼的彩虹，而是上帝的承诺。。
凭着信心。。。

有一段时间，没有坐爸爸的车了。。
昨晚，爸爸载我回大学时，心里是很开心的。。
那半个小时，能和爸爸谈天。。
爸爸瘦了15磅。。压力，工作。。要扛这个家。。
爸爸都没有垮，所以我要像爸爸一样坚强。。
从小，就很钦佩我的爸爸。。
因为，他白手起家，谦虚，幽默，凡事都尽力做最好，耐心，爱我们，爱妈妈等等
希望我有他的十分之一。。。

加油吧！！未来还有更多的路，更多的难关。。
但是，我知道阿爸天父在看守，那我还担心什么。。
还剩3个星期，这个学期就完了。。
那么快，就要踏进第三年。。
加油加油！！！