Saturday, December 04, 2010

假期感想

假期感言1

刚刚看了SHE 的一些通告,节目。。
有一些部分都很感动。。
真的很喜欢SHE!!尤其是Hebe。。哈哈。。
喜欢他们彼此的真诚,互动。。
喜欢他们的音乐。。
超喜欢听他们的故事。。怎样从困难走出来。。
怎样彼此的扶持。。 现在的Selina 要加油咯!!

假期感言2

昨日和父母有些意见不合。。
有时候的语言真的会很伤人。。
而我是那种对于语言,每一句都会很铭记在心。。
所以,哭了。。
回想起,小的时候,还蛮常哭。。
反而长大了,有顾虑了。。都不会轻易在别人面前哭。。
知道爸爸妈妈的担心。。所以,也有一点的责备自己的不孝。。

爸爸妈妈,
若你有看我的这一篇,我想对你说。。
谢谢你们。。给予我的自由空间。。让我飞翔,让我去做我想做的事。。
纵使你们有多不放心,只要我真的很想,你都会答应。。
真的很感动。。因为,我知道每当我出去,你们都会很担心,很担心。
但是,因为你们信任我, 知道我会照顾自己,知道上帝在看顾我,你们都会放手让我。
其实,我真的很少出去了啊。。 :P
相信我。。让我试一试。。我知道,就算外面发生什么事,都会有你们撑着。。
也希望你们都会体会我的心情。。
不要把我的谅解不吵闹,不让你们担心的心情当是理所当然的。。
很多时候我的沉默,或许带着某一定的放弃了。。
我并没有你们想像中的坚强,懂事,独立。。也没有你们想像的脆弱,不会照顾自己。

永远在你们面前都会有一点点的害怕~
不过,我知道你们爱我,我也很爱你们。。

假期感言3

假期。。 超爽的。。
也有一点不开心的。。 就是没有出去任何的一个trip。。
不过,我后天就去trip了。。yeah!!开心。。
假期,这次的假期。。我真的有好好休息。。
没有满满的行程。。就是。。准时12/1点睡, 8/9 点起来。。
然后,吃早餐,读报纸,与上帝聊天,读圣经,读故事书,看戏,与朋友出去喝茶,聊天,看戏等。或是,在朋友家闲诳,做论文,筹备camp的事情。。就,没有压力。。还蛮不错。。
有时候,就和朋友聚聚。。

我认为,人生到了某个阶段,比较喜欢和大家相处的时间,而比不太在乎地点或是要做的活动。。就是,人对我来讲是最重要的。。
我可以,就这样陪着你做什么事,或就这样聊天。。我就很开心了。。
有时候的surprise也是一种生活的情调啦。。
只是,我真的很珍惜我现在人生身边的朋友啊,家人啊。。
就很想用我能有的能力,就祝福他们,与他们分享彼此的生命这样子。。
我知道能做的有限,有时的我还是会情绪化,任性一点点。。但是,我好希望身边的朋友们,家人们都被祝福,上帝蒙恩。。

Sunday, November 14, 2010

holiday lu~~~

i finished exam lo......
haha.. finally.. finally...
i also duno how am i going through this exam period...
firstly is no time to study...
then got one week to study.. but dunno how.. just dun have the mood to study...
dragging.. dragging.. and dun feel like studying..
plus have to busy to collect data for the thesis...
thank God for the peace He gave through prayer and worship songs..
thank God that the exam is over...
and now.. haha.. can relax lu..
can rest and go out le...
just wanna spread the happiness in my blog..
though still got thesis have to do.. but.. enjoy first. hehe..
o ya.. camilia is shifting to kota kemuning, shah alam..
snift snift.. really bu she de..
but believing that God has His purpose and plan in it..
though we might hardly see one another, but i will always remember her at heart..
someone that has been a blessing in the cg and have brought forth so much joy in the group..
all the best camilia..
give thanks to the Lord for wat ever that had happen..
praise God.. not because of all the blessings that He give..
praise God.. not because of all the good things...
but
praise God.. because He is the Lord..
praise God.. because He deserves and worthy of it..
i also wan to praise God and thank God that He heard my prayer and answered it..
thank you Lord...for the LI place has been confirmed, for the car u grant to my family, for You have been faithful in watching over my family and us...
suddenly listen to the song of You alone can rescue..

*Our shame was deeper than the sea

Your love is deeper still*

*For when our hearts were far away

Your love went further still*

*You alone can rescue, You alone can save

You alone can lift us from the grave

You came down to find us, led us out of death*

These three stanza really moved me..

God, you always went further still for us.....

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

how i feel now at this moment

a lot of things had happens..
physical events, emotional events and spiritual events..
all had influence and affected me much...
i complained, i depressed, i questioned, i give up...

maybe i have become a perfectionist?
maybe i have thought i have the control?
maybe i have taken God's place indirectly and hoping things gets it my way?
maybe i have been astray by loosing God's focus?

i thank you, God..
for this journey of wandering..
for this journey of seeking who im again..
for this journey that though You are quiet, i know You are there for me
for this journey that i see how Your hands move the things..
for this journey i have slowly find back myself..
for this journey that i know deeply, no matter how messy is the thing, God you still in control..

i'm grateful for
people that understands and allow me going this period of time..
people that steps in to help when i don't feel like doing anything..
people who encourage, comforts and affirm me this time..
people who don't criticize me during my lowest moment..
people who keeps pulling me out of it...
people who just love me.. and love me..
most of all..
grateful for people who has constantly accompany me..
who go all the way for me..


i'm sorry, friends...for this period of time...
if i've done things that hurt and discourage you..
if i've spoken something that i didn't mean it..
if i've neglect you unintentionally..
if i've reject your invitation or turn over the appointment..
if i've been such a disaster to you...
if i've lock myself sometimes...

not to say i'm fully recover..
not to say i'm fully ok and able to stand up again..
at least.. i'm learning to walk it out...
at least...i feel.. i'm better..
at least i'm leaning on God..
*the most important is not that we know God is at our side..
but to know we are at His side..*

PS:
i have cut short hair.. something that i never imagine..
and i don't like it..
hearing comments.. makes me sad the first day..
but.. thankful for people who affirm me and cheer me.. haha..
thank you ya..
i was once like this.. so.. physical appearance doesn't really matter.. what matter is my heart...
is my heart beautiful today??? hehe..

Monday, September 27, 2010

when im at the lowest, that's where i see the highest of my God..

Lord... I will praise you in the Storm...

God asked:"Will you continue to love, trust, obey and worship Me, even when you have no sense of My presence or visible evidence of My work in your life?"
My reply: "Yes God, make this my prayer today for i know You will never leave me nor forsake me though i cant feel your presence....."

I have read that God often removes our feelings so we wont'e depend on them. Seeking a feeling, even the feeling of closeness to Christ is not worship. God never promise you will always feel my presence, but He promised never leave us nor forsake me.

I read from my fren's blog.. there is memory in our heart.. i find it quite meaningful..

人的心脏,是有记忆的。

它知道何时要跳动,何时要停止。
就算人的脑已经死了,但心脏还是会靠着记忆,继续的有规律的跳动着...只要那时的状况良好。
上帝的创造真的很奇妙....

心--是有记忆的
所以,人很常说:“把你藏在我的心里...
对于很在乎的人,或是自己所爱的人,
你就会向他/她打开自己的心,
而那个人的名字,就会好像深深的刻在,
心里面的其中一个细胞...有着很深的记忆。

“你要保守你心 胜过保守一切 因为一生的果效 是由心发出。”箴言4:23
"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. " Proverbs 4:23

上帝很在乎我们的
我们的,对于祂是何等珍贵。
所以祂希望,我们可以好好的保守自己的,胜过保守一切。
可是,这一切并不是代表,
要自我封闭自己的
或许,当我们越打开自己的时,同时也会受到很多的伤害...
但,我仍然相信,它的美丽。
我仍期待看见,由发出最真诚的--爱。

曾经所受过的伤害...
心,所留下很多难以磨灭的伤痛...
曾经用心的,完全去相信一个人...
用心去爱...
用心去为一个人付出...
或许最后只剩下,
受伤的伤痕...遗憾...和痛....
但,仍不会后悔。
因为那一切,都是由心所发出真诚的爱。

晓微,借用你所写的部落,因为写的真的很好。。

心-是有记忆的。当我说我把你放在我心里, 那么我就不会忘记你。。
无论以后如何,但这一刻,你在我心里的重要,是无法用言语形容的。。
你不只在我心中留下脚印,更影响了我。。

心-是有记忆的。能够回忆是因为我们曾经拥有,经历过。。
我感恩我们有很多回忆。。因为这代表我们经历了很多。。。
我们将要一起再创造更多回忆。。。

心-是有记忆的。它不只记得美好的回忆,也会记得所受的伤害。。
但是,因为爱。。所以,可以选择去不再记起,而让风把它带走。。
就像上帝。。祂选择不去记得我们的罪,当我们忏悔时。。
不是祂不记得,祂选择不去记得。。
爱-不会记恨,记仇。。它只记得爱。。。

心-是最宝贵的。。当它不再跳动时,生命就停止了。
所以,好好珍惜它。。好好珍惜我给你的心。。
因为,它已经不完美了,很脆弱。。
希望你能呵护它~

感恩上帝赐给我们-心
虽然我们的心会被伤害,但是也因为有心才能爱你。。
对于感情,有时会却步因为害怕伤害。。
但是,上帝,我恳求你。。保守我的心。。。
让我在爱人的同时,也能保护我自己的心。。。
就像上帝你爱我们一样。。。
无论我们做错什么,怎样的我们。。
你都愿意无条件接受。。 无条件的爱。。

Monday, September 13, 2010

我看自己的我

我觉得我是一个很感性,情绪化的人。。
但是,现实的残酷让我不能不是一个理性的人。。
所以,我是一个矛盾的人。。
因为我必须在很多时候,告诉自己。。不能情绪化。。要理性。。
不能这样。。。要这样。。
原本是没有问题的。。因为每个人都面对同样的问题。。但是,他们的生活似乎没有冲突。。

但是,最近的我。。想做一个感性,情绪化的人。。
所以,我告诉理性。。 你不要出来了。。
结果。。
很多事情,我都抱着。。我没有心情。。 我不想这么做。。
就不做。。。
虽然,还是有些事情,我会去强逼自己去完成。。毕竟不能太任性,放纵自己。。
功课比起两年前,拖延了很多很多。。
考试前读书,也越来越没时间。。因为。。没心情。。
很多事情。。我会说。。不想做。。不想。。 就这样颓废一整天。。
想做的。。就做。。虽然,有时会后悔。。
后悔的是会后悔吗? 废话。。
颓废的感觉如何? 蛮享受的。。
我不抗拒理性。。很多人都觉得我很理性。。某方面是。。因为要顾大全。。
但对于我自己的事, 我是感性的。。 因为,影响的只有我。。

就比如。。 我原本现在应该吃早餐,但是我却在电脑面前写部落。。
我原本应该做我的功课。。但是我选择去睡觉。。
我原本应该。。。。 但是。。我却没有。。
没有的结果。。我后悔。。
但是还是不想。。因为,我的固执。。

我很容易感动。。一点点。。一个动作。。一个讯息就足以感动我。。
听到你的声音,有时的我会很开心。。甚至开心一整天。。
因为,我在我的心里给了你很大的空间。。
所以。。我也很容易被伤害。。
当我的世界围绕你的时候,你的一举一动都被放大了。。
我很容易感受到你的一丝改变。。
但也因为这样。。有时候的我。。忽略了很多你的想法。。
因为。。我还是感情任性的我。。
有时候的任性。。或许只想听到你让我的任性,或者是你关心的责备。。
那一点点。。都能让我觉得我其实在你心里是很重要的。。
因为。。我害怕。。被遗忘,被丢下,被放弃的感觉。。

我很喜欢。。很享受。。大自然。。
喜欢就坐在沙滩上。。什么都不做。。
就静静的听着海风,看着眼前的大海。。细数满天星的夜空。。
因为,这样才能平静我的心情。。
好想平静下来。。 好想觉得这个浩瀚的大海,有我容身之地。。
好想觉得。。我的渺小凸显出宇宙的奥妙。。

一个很情绪化,很无厘头的一篇。。
没有连贯的故事桥接,只有现在的我的心情。。
所以,我决定。。今天,还是跟感觉走。。


~一年的时间对一个人的生命来说,占多少分量?
而一个人在另一个人的生命力,又能占多少分量?
如果我能活到60岁,那么这一年对我而言,只占了六十分之一
对不起,我的算术很差。。
因为我算出来的答案,是永远。。
是时候说再见,就是时候接受离别
只是。。说再见的当下,那个人在你生命里的分量,会不会改变?
答案是会的。。。
因为分量只会变得更重,而不会变轻。~

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

知道不应该。。但是,就是很想这样做了
很自私但是不想理了。。
对不起

Sunday, August 15, 2010

3rd year

3rd year spell busy...tired... stress...

i thought i was the only one...
but actually everyone face the same thing..
maybe is cuz of 3rd year...
interview...assignments.. mid term...thesis coming in...camp...youth.. etc..
i feel.. im overloaded.. so tired...
a..................................................................................................................................................

anyhow, i just wanna thank God..
thank God tat He knows me.. He is in control..
thank God for His favor..
that i should not doubt Him...

Lord, grant me strength and help me to learn to rely on You, and not myself..
Lord.... grant me wisdom and discipline..
Amen...

Thursday, July 29, 2010

痛~

很久。。在我记忆里。。这种痛。。很久没来了。。
今早,一起来。。头开始疼了。。
太久没有的痛,让我一时忘了它-偏头痛
那霎那,我只能告诉自己。。没有事的。。
我依靠上帝的力量一定可以熬过的。。

因为,偏头痛不只是生理的痛,更是心理的战争。。
如果,我觉得我被它打败。。那么,我将会痛很久很久。。
所以,我一直说服自己。。上帝与我同在。。
无论如何,我相信上帝是万能的。。

但是,人是脆弱的。。
当我一个人面对时,很容易就撑不下了。。
因为,往事的回忆痛。。。让我怕。。
在短短2个小时,就呕 了2-3次。。。
在我就快撑不下时。。 上帝差遣了她。。。
谢谢你, 希。。。
大老远的载我看医生,陪我还书,帮我买午餐和晚餐,督促我吃药,帮我按摩等。。
让我慢慢的睡了。。
你的陪伴给了我精神上的支持。。。
睡醒后。。我感觉很多了。。
没有那么的痛了。。。

所以。。今天躺了一整天。。
第一次。。在大学生涯里。。没有去上课。。。

Monday, July 26, 2010

大学第三年

12-7-10开学了。。
第三年,也是我的大学最后一年。。
我们一大群的第三年生都不能适应这种转变。。
第三年了,就要毕业了。。
就连学弟,学妹们找我们签名时,他们都说第三年的学长学姐们很难找。。
无论我们喜欢与否,我们是第三年了。。
身为第三年生,没有什么特别。。
功课也是一样多。。(其实更多),课照上,照样出去玩。。呵呵。。
但是,我们多了一份将要离别的感觉。。

大学三年了。。
刚进来时,什么都不懂。。
离开家里的安乐窝。。什么都要重新开始。。
现在的我们,
比刚进来时,多了一份踏实感,多了很多的友谊,无论是在宿舍或学院
认识了一群很要好的朋友,甚至是一家人。。
想到毕业后,大家将会很少很少联络,不长见面的感觉,实在有点难过。。
天下没有不散之宴席,这个道理懂。。但是,心情难免会有一些的惆怅。。
所以,剩下的大学时光。。我们都会好好的把握在一起的时间。。
最近就有很多一起出去吃晚餐的约会。。
想必大家都想有一个美好的回忆留下吧~

第三年,将要写出我的论文。。
其实只是比较基础的论文而已。。
但是,却有一定的压力。。因为都是个人的作品去研究某某课题。。
而且还是6个unit那么多。。
想了,交了我的题目。。。
上帝啊。。
希望我的论文题目能被通过。。也能被分发到我想要的老师那里。。

今年
会是一个很特别的一年。。因为这
是一个让我走出我的舒适地带的一年。。
是一个让我学习很多的一年。。
是一个让我完全依靠上帝的一年。。
是一个人生起落很大的一年。。
是一个很多改变的一年。。

加油吧,璇~~
加油吧,我的朋友们~
依靠上帝的力量让我一步一步的征服它。。。

Sunday, July 18, 2010

comfort at times

someone handed me this last few weeks...
I feel moved by the words.. God always at His own timing know what is the best for us..

***
Never doubt your abilities.
Never let anyone or anything make you feel less than what you believe you are.
Never feel you cant walk another step further.
even if you feel you're stumbling, keep your head straight on.
Know in your heart that nobody can hurt you, unless you let them do so.
Never lose faith in yourself...
Because who you are is someone special...
***

Thanks Deniece.. your gift comes at the time where i needed much encouragement and also affirmation..

Today in the service, Rev Francis all the way from India shared something..

*2 Corinthians 4: 18
~So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.~

so many times, we tend to focus on things we can see.. like clothing, food etc...
all these things are temporary and doesn't matter..
in this bible verse, i have learn that we should focus things that is unseen for example... God, relationship, virtues, kindness, love etc...
God who is so big... so strong.. so mighty...
If we surrender everything to Him, He will definitely take care of us..
then what shall we fear? what should we worry....

i read on Evon's blog..
she put it nicely... and quoted a bible verse..

God says, "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?-Matthew 6:26"

God continues, "See how lilies of the field grow. They do no labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon(one of the King during the Old Testament in the Bible) in all his splendour was dressed like one of these.-Matthew 6:28,29"

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his(or her) life?-Matthew 6:27"

He gives us His promise to take good care of us.. we shouldnt have to worry:)
Just Trust in Him....

Monday, July 05, 2010

some thoughts

if one day God ask you...

"I give you one million dollar, u want??"

what will your answer be??

someone ask me this question and without any hesitation i say..
i want..
cuz.. God ask wor.. sure say want ma...

but there is one person who says...
"God, i dont want that one million dollar.. I want a million soul.."

wow.. i feel so ashamed when i hear this..
i mean..i never thot of that answer..
just like when King Solomon told God.. i don't want all the wealth etc.. I just want wisdom to rule your people..

same question different answer..
the answer is different because.. it shows.. how close you walk with God to know His will
i think God has use this to inspire me..

my prayer today..
Lord.. give me the one million soul...
Holy Spirit... refresh in my life that i can be close friend with you..
I hope every moment i walk with you..

someone told me..
God the Father, Jesus the son, Holy Spirit can be define as...

God the Father = sun
Jesus = the light
Holy Spirit = the heat..

you cant really see the sun, but u see the glory of the sun..
just like you cant see the God, but u know God exists and you can see His glory..
Jesus come to this world.. as a light..
you can see light...
Holy Spirit is the heat.. you know there is heat.. u can feel it.. but u can see it..
can u have God, Jesus and ignore the Holy Spirit?
as to say... can u have the Sun, the light and ignore the heat??

you cant.. what will the world be without the heat?? u feel cold..
therefore we need the Holy Spirit...
Holy Spirit i need you for You're so important, so vital in my life..
i might feel nothing in the beginning when i lose You..
but as time goes by.. i know i will be freezing.. too cold..
i cannot survive without you...
Come, Holy Spirit... Fall on me now...

~this is my prayer today~

Sunday, July 04, 2010

last part of my holiday...

Kluang trip ( 11-13th June) something i have planned quite sometimes to bring my gals... the secondary youth in my church to go down to explore themselves,bonding and also to take chance to serve in a shelter home... 3days 2 nights.. i have an enjoyable with the gals.. with Aunt Janet, Uncle Chiu, Kah Heng, Albert, Deniece and Joye's help.. everything went on smoothly.. through this trip, i can see their enthusiasm and their care.. i hope that they have caught much in this trip and friendship can be bonded:)


went hiking the first day... at Gunung Lambak

our breakfast at the famous Kluang Station Railway

ministering in the Agape Shelter Home.. i'm personally touched by the children.. for their strong hearts inregardless of what circumstances..and their cheerfulness..

makan makan...
i need to take opportunity to thank Lee Fan and Lee Yin's parents for lending a house for us to stay and without charging us any fee.. really grateful to have them.. Besides, they still give us a treat... such kind hearted family.. God bless you all...


this photo taken on the last day at Ps Kelly in law house:)

 
Broga trip (2nd July) broga hill.. i heard many people go here to hike, but never go myself.. this Broga Trip is actually our form 6 gathering.. though most of the people cant make it.. but got 10 of us.. consider quite good dy... thanks to Yoon Ming, this is my first experience to hike.. somemore early in the morning.. and i can see sun rise.. so so nice.. i mean.. is worth it... thanks to Khar Keong in leading the way in darkness... well.. if u ask me, i will feel.. is not that hard in hiking Broga.. maybe the hardest part is the nearing 4th peak there.. Thanks to all the gentlemen too... that makes the hiking so smoothly.. really enjoy myself..

10 of us on the 2nd peak...
taken when almost the sun rises..
at the peak between 3rd and 4th...after struggling up:P
i like the natural view.. so so so nice...

the three pretty gals:P Mei May, me and Agnes

top of the hill... puncak...400m height, 1.7km journey

this is the homemade certificate:P

Exercise Day (3rd July)

 haha.. no picture of exercise.. just the photos of what we eat after exercise.. the we is wan see, huey yen, lee miin and suet fun.. haha.. fat fat fat.... but is nice to do exercise...make me feel healthy and good... in the between of kluang trip and the Broga hill.. i went out with friends... meet up with Ying Ling.. old time fren.. out with siew wah..before she depart to UK.. meet up with wai han and agnes... just hang out, shop..celebrate someone's birthday.. out with wan see.. to watch toy story 3 and karate kid.. nice movie!! stay overnight... out with huey yen, suet fun, lee miin, wan see... celebrate my grandma birthday.. i think is 72 大寿.. im amazed.. on this special occasion.. just my grandma children and grandchildren can sit 6 tables le..2 multiply to become 18 children and in law and 23 grandchildren... i really grateful for my grandmother who has taken care of me ever since im young.. thank you... in less than a week time.. i have to say bye bye to my holiday.. 3rd year-my final year is starting next monday.. 2 months of holiday pass so soon le... like do nothing tim.. memang do nothing..cuz.. this holiday i really enjoy, rested... so... 3rd year here i come...

Saturday, June 26, 2010

很痛很痛~
但是,至少我知道我还是有感觉的。。
我害怕有天。。痛到麻木。。
心里一直盘问。。为什么~
但是,又应该知道为什么。。
我还能做什么。。
还能。。做什么。。
放手真的是更好吗?

原来我没有自己想象中的那么坚强,那么潇洒。。

Friday, June 18, 2010

rest in peace, my fren

听到这消息时,我的表情就只有。。张开我的嘴巴。。
对。。这是我的反应。。
我吓到了。。
我。。不知道该说什么,做什么。。
事情的经过,也只能从报纸阅读。。
太突然了。。太惊讶了。。让我太震惊了。。
每天,从报纸上阅读某某人在车祸中逝世。。
没想到。。竟然有这么的一天,看到朋友的名字在那其中。。
那种感觉。。很难受。。很难过。。
实在是。。太突然了。。
我们原本还打算下个月就有个聚会了。。

JOASH WEE。。
know him through YES (Youth Enrichment School)..
very gentleman guy, funny, kind hearted, caring etc..
for that 2 weeks together, we really spend a good time together..
playing, praying and learning the Word together, serving together...
nice fren and bro to be with...
after that, we did had some gathering to just catch up..
din really spend much time with him after that, once in while do msn or sms..
but.. to feel that he is no longer here on earth..is sad..
but..we feel comforted that he is in God's embrace now..
at least i know.. one day..i will meet him in heaven...
rest in peace,my fren

everything seem to be fine..and we always take things for granted..
deep in our mind, we always tell ourselves... we still have time to meet up, catch up..
we still young and time is ours...
actually we don't... have the time luxury...
no matter how old or how young we are, we don't know whether we still be here next minute, next second etc..
though we are so uncertainty..we do know..God is in control..
therefore, we shall not be scare or afraid for we have hope in Him...

今天看到报纸大赤赤的报道,大大的封面报道,
看到你的照片。。
感触。。感叹。。
太多的感觉,心情。。却找不到一个恰当的词句来形容我的心情。。
忽然间,你就消失了。。就这样,17-6-10这一天离开了。。
在面子书想找你,才发现原来我从来没有把你加入朋友。。
现在的我,想要加,也已经来不及了。。
跟你,虽然不常联络,但是那两个星期以及时常的聚会,也称的上蛮不错的朋友。。
从此以后的聚会,我们都会怀念你。。
从此以后,你的电话,声音等都会在这世界消失。。
那种感觉,很不好受。。
难过的是,你消失后的感觉。。
值得安慰的是,我们将会在天堂相见。。
看到你姐姐的留言,让我真的很感动。。
~You give and take away, my heart will choose to say Lord blessed be Your name~
这首歌,我们平常唱的时候,只是根据歌词来唱
但是,今天看到这留言。。你的姐姐真的活出了这个歌词的意义。。
对,我们所有的一切都是上帝给的,而上帝永远都有祂的安排。。
会为你姐姐代祷。。

死亡不是最可怕的。。
可怕的是,死亡后再死亡。。
基督徒的信仰是我们死后还会在天堂相见。。
我们存有盼望,因为这盼望是在主耶稣基督
每个人都会经过肉体的死亡,但是属灵的存或亡的选择-其实是在你自己的手中
因为圣经说:

~神爱世人,甚至将祂的独生子赐给他们(就是我们),叫一切信祂的,不至灭亡,反得永生~
约翰福音3: 16

你知道死了以后,你会在哪里吗?
现在有个保证。。那就是信耶稣的,就必定在天堂。。
没有一个人或宗教,能有那么的权威和把握给你这个保障。。除了耶稣基督。。
信祂,你并没有任何的损失,只是你多了一个爱你的朋友和天父和一个永生的承诺。。
你愿意去相信吗?

人生真的很短暂。。
所以,珍惜身边的每一个,每一件事情。。
也因为人生的短暂,我希望我活在世上的每一天都能祝福身边的人
或许明天的我不会在这世上,那么我会留下什么给我身边的人?

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

感想

之前就说过。。
我喜欢散步。。

我喜欢藤井树其中一本书写的。。。
*我喜欢找你来散步因为当两个人用相同的速度在前进时,
频率会是接近的,所以在谈话的内容中会不自觉的放松,
有助于了解彼此,甚至也可以因为频率非常接近的关系,
可以知道对方心里正在想什么。。*

或许,我正在寻找那个愿意和我散步&我愿意和他散步的人吧~

那天,看到了这一句。。。
依赖是幸福的,
放手是坚强的。
这句话挺有意思的,也让我的内心有少许的征住了~

能有人让你依赖,确实是幸福的。。。
而学会放手。。需要的是勇气。。还有坚强的心啊。。
我还在寻找那个能让我依赖的人啊~
有点累了,想找个肩膀靠。。。

被爱是幸福的,
爱人是福气的。
而我想要两者都有。。。
能让我有这福气和幸福吗??

呵呵。。。

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

方大同演唱会~timeless concert

我人生第二场演唱会。。献给了方大同先生。。 哈哈。。在5月29 日2010年。。云顶云星剧场。。 其实,在这之前,对于方大同本人的认识,真的少之又少。。 但是,因为是跟老友们一块去。。所以,就去了。。 在早上。。我,希,艳,敏,希的弟弟-谦和他的两位朋友就搭巴士上云顶。。 中间,我们转了几个站,打了几通电话,才买到巴士票上云顶。。 所以,下次。。要早一点买票。。而且,不要在公共假期搭缆车上云顶。。 因为。。到达云顶半山,缆车处。。我们足足等了1小时45分钟才上到缆车。。 超多人的。。。排队很浪费时间,人力。。

我们四人在缆车里

谦和他的朋友们
我们的全体照:P

终于。。到了云顶。。登记了酒店。。 我们就放下行李。。吃午餐。。呵呵,到sushi king吃,还蛮便宜的。。 过后,我们就到酒店休息。。睡觉。。 哈哈。。果然,到了某个年龄。。休息还是最好的。。哇哈哈 正如丽敏的口头禅:我们80后代和90前代(谦和他朋友们),确实有那么一点点的代沟 然后,我们就去了Khalil Fong - Timeless Concert。。 在那里遇到了wai kuan 和 juinn shian。。 整场的演唱会。。他的歌声蛮好听的,也蛮舒服。。 只是或许不熟悉歌词,也听不清楚他的字。。所以,就欣赏他的曲风。。 很有才华的一个艺人。。会弹很多种乐器。。很厉害,让我惊为叹之!! 只能用佩服两个字形容。。。 不错的演唱会

真的是座无虚席

远远看到的方大同。。

这次上云顶,其实是和老朋友联谊。。 很久没有和他们一同出去旅行了。。 很享受这个过程。。就是嘻嘻哈哈的。。谈起最近的近况。。回想起以前的点点滴滴。。 这次,我们也有进去赌场。。就是去走一圈。。呵呵,我们终于可以光明正大的进去了。。 还有,那江鱼仔的故事,就得请丽敏向你们说了。。哈哈 真的很开心。。虽然只是短短的两天。。但是,有你们在..过的很快乐,很充实。。 谢谢你们.. miss you all~~

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Give thanks

i wanna give thanks...to the Lord God Almighty...
this is because of His grace and mercy and love never fails...

Abba Father,
thank you for everything..
thank you for the result i got last week...
i cant believe what i saw...
it is beyond my expectation..
last sem was hard.. so many works to do..so many practical till i also dunno what to study for exam..
it is stress...
plus last sem, my emotionally wasnt really stable...
with all these circumstances, in human logical mind, i definitely cant..
but you showed me...
it is because of You...and not...
i have to depend on You and not myself...
and You work miraculously in my life...

i like this phrase of mine *is because i can't, that's y i know God can*
*when im at the lowest, that's where i see the highest of my God*
Therefore, Father, this result is belongs to You and i give You all the honor, glory...
amen..

Thursday, June 03, 2010

thankz fren...

how many of your friend willing to go all the way for you?
how many willing to fetch you even is so inconvenient?
how many will give you their time no matter how busy they are?
how many will willing to accompany you, wait for you to off work??
how many will pay for you and say 我们之间还有算meh??

im blessed to have her...
im honored to have her...
im so proud to have her...
i know... only because of me, she gives me so much grace and love..

thank you!!!!

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

成长

“为什么要逼我成长”
这句话,一直烙在我的脑海里。。
对不起。。我只能这样对你说。。
我并不想逼你成长的。。只是,有的选择吗?
看着你怨恨我的眼神。。我无语了,也不想解释。。

这句话,曾经的我也说过。。
那时候,我也不明白,
但是。。懦弱的我,接受了。。
我没有正面的反抗,
只是在埋怨中学会成长。。
现在回首,我感恩。。
因为那段路,让我学习很快。。
因为这样,我的视野变宽,也比较人情世故。。
是一个很痛苦的路程,
但是。。现在真的获益良多。。。
所以,我选择。。让你成长。。
结果,得到的是。。。
我不想理了。。很多所做的事,
到最后,结果还是差不多。。

所以,我不再干涉你的生活。。
你要怎样,就怎样。。
或许让你自己成长。。让你跌倒是件好事。。
家。。家人。。永远会是你那最后的避风港。。
虽然,现在的你还不明白这个道理。。
相信我。。你有天会明白的。。

这就是你和我不同的地方。。
你会表明你不爽,你不要。。
我。。只会默默的承受。。
因为我发觉,就算我抗议,也没有用。。
没有人听到我的心里的呐喊声。。
其实,你比我好很多很多。。
至少,你可以任性,可以发泄,可以不要就不要。。
我呢?我不能。。你又何曾知道我走过的路?
凭什么向我发脾气。。。
你总是身在福中不知福。。
你说,为什么在家都要这样辛苦。。
我。。没有答案。。因为,我走过。。我明白。。
家,曾经对我而言。。并不是避风港。。
所以,我很少在家。。
但是,我知道。。
无论如何,这个家到最后还是最好的避风港。。
所以,你的问题。。需要你自己找答案。。
反正我的答案,你都不接受了。。

我发现。。
我越来越优柔寡断,眉头深锁。。
是因为早成长吗?
或许。。早成长让我想很多,顾虑很多。。
人, 也变忧郁了。。

从小,我就被灌输。。
什么事情都要去争取,要靠自己。。
从小,我知道,
我没有很惊艳的脸孔,惊人的特长。。
就是很普通的我。。
我也没有想过要有什么作为。。

所以,我很努力。。很努力地想得到身边人的认同,许可。。
深怕,我的不够努力,别人就会抛弃我,嫌弃我。。
因为我好像很容易就被人遗忘,被人丢下。。被人放弃。。
那种感觉,试过一次又一次。。好难过哦。。
忽然觉得。。我不被需要了。。
我被落单了。。
我不见了,有人在乎吗?
有人在乎我吗?

很情绪化的一篇。。
宣泄了。。日子还是要过。。
所以,我要说服自己以正面的想法面对。。
啊爸天父,帮助我。。

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Rachel's wedding

Rachel is married...... to Shern Foo and now.... tada.. officially as Mrs. Foo... Rachel is my CG leader when i come in.. take good care of me, care for me, believe in me.. i really believe God has sent her to watch over me when im in EFC.. she always come in just the right time when i had my lowest point in life.. she knows and understands my struggle and always.. allow me to make my mistake and yet.. loving me... she also the da ka jie in the youth.. anchoring a lot of things in youth.. able to do so many things at once.. love liverpool, love pigs, and most of all, love God.. i would really wan to take this opportunity to thank her.. for what she had done in the youth and also personally in my life.. she is a leader that i look up to, a sister who care... really appreciate her and i believe the youth feels the same too.. as she is leaving to UK, (we are going to cry..) we gonna miss her super much... on the 22nd May 2010, is the officially wedding ceremony.. she looks gorgeous..i think she really should wear dress more often.. haha.. anyway, i feel honored that im able to help in the ceremony.. and give face to her.. to wear dress in the ceremony:)


ta da...Mr and Mrs. Foo....and piggy behind..

CEFC youth and the couple...
eunice and i..
mei mei and i...

tjin earl and i ( got to know her through this wedding.. very sweet gal)

the younger ones, Andrea and Ps. Kelly...

this is the night dinner... with florence..

and with the gals...

hehe.. thursday bridal shower for her.. friday is the rehearsal for the wedding.. saturday is the day of wedding ceremony at DUMC and night dinner at J.W.Marriot.. i hope she did enjoy the briday shower..hehe...all photos will be kept in memory..haha.. is indeed a busy days but is worth while for she deserved much more... congrats!!!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

KK trip day 4 and 5

today is a day where wan see and i had nothing in mind of what to do... hehe.. since so, we wake up at 10am.. the first time ever since we came to KK.. did have some quality of rest... then we took our time to eat our breakfast.. thanks dear for bringing the foods.. haha after that, andrea fetch us to go to KK town.. since nothing in mind, therefore...today is a shopping mall tour day.. actually we went to Warisan Square, Centrepoint, One Borneo on the first day.. somemore had a nice Starbucks coffee there.. hehe.. then we also went to CKS, Tiong Hing..a lot of hypermarket here... and we saw times square in KK which is totally different from KL one.. today, we went to Suria Sabah..is a newly open shopping mall.. located near the Jesselton Port.. within 45 mins.. we tour finish the malls.. cuz.. we have nothing in mind wat to buy plus lots of shop haven open yet.. so, we walk to the Wisma Merdeka... there, we walk around an hour plus.. to see see look look.. even stop by at a bookshop and bought 2 psychology book..haha...*happy* Andrea only finish work by 5pm, so we have plenty of time around.. at the end, both of us decided to go to this place, Strudels... to have our tea time.. it is a very enjoyable, relax day for us... the view around is nice.. we are not in a hurry.. just take our own sweet time to chat, to write.. how we wish a life like this, right, wan see?

some views from Suria Sabah to Jesselton Port

that's me...

Wan See and i enjoy our high tea at The Strudel and eating strudel...



at night, we are so privilege that Florence cook for our dinner.. yummie.. it is so delicious.. i even had 2 plate of rice.. should try...

durian rolls..smell...so durian as our dessert.. not forgetting 2 cheese cakes..

after the makan, we go to signal hill and also Sutera Harbour Hotel.. the hotel is so so beautiful... dunno how many stars.. but one night.. cost around RM400-500...
proboscis monkey and lovely see..

Next morning.. we board the plane after eating breakfast with Ps. Serena..
This is us.. at the entrance of the gate in KKIA...

thank you Ps. Serena for treating us to eat the famous mee for breakfast.. thank you also for praying for wan see that she dun have air sick at all when she is on the way back to KL.. i give thanks to God for everything and that i able to see and amazed at another wonderful creation of His.. i landed down KL safe and sound..and litttle did i know..i do miss KL :) in the same time, i miss KK too.. miss the beautiful scenery, wonderful people there.. i will be back again.. in due time.. that time, it be a time of conquering the mount KK.. right, wan see?? this is our promise de lo.... ~The End~

Friday, May 28, 2010

KK trip day 3

day 3... today is totally on our own.. and we plan to go to island....hehe.. heard is quite nice and beautiful.. so early morning, Andrea fetch us to Jesselton port.. there, we are like sheep among the wolves... haha, someone approach us and we dunno how to say no and everything seems ok.. so, we taken the someone offer... i think..his name is ben.. See, is it correct?? anyway, i have been praying hard.. haha..since only both of them and both of us.. o ya.. still got a couple from Shanghai de...

this is Jesselton Port Welcomes us :)

this is us... before entering the boat... and apply many many sunblockss....

there are a lot of small islands here... we are going to Manukan and Mamutik island..

the water there is crystal clear.. u can just see the fishes, corals from above...

we went snorkelling...

and also this one.. motor scooter.. very fun.. is quite expensive la.. but for one time experience, i think is worth it.. right, see? we can drive this down the ocean.. like diving or submarine like that.. can see.. so many so many fishes de le.. can even touch and see clearly...



See and i... taken photo by a handsome one.. haha...

coming back from island back to port.. because only both of us.. he(the left guy) allow us to try driving the boat le.. fun..

during evening time, Ps. Noah's family bring us and Andrea to Tanjung Aru to see the sunset.. nice or not le.. for me, is so so so nice..till words cant be describe...

me and dear wan see..


us with Florence...

us with Andrea...

with Ps. Noah, Florence and Gianna

series of cute Gianna....more photos, please log in facebook to see:P


avocado drinks. *thumbs up* RM 8 only for so big bottle...

Pastor call it bishop nose..it is known as buntut ayam.. quite ok... Pastor Noah's favourite..

this is xing zhou mi fen...sabah style.. got curry..delicious..

after that, we went to pesta keamatan, the harvest festival.. since we are at Sabah... we must see this cultural show which KL dun have de...
take photo with the orang asli...

some choir performance...

this is at the KK city town... 

after that, we went to museum kopitiam.. 1945 open de le...is an antique shop...
this is the place where Andrea always hang out with frens..


Andrea is holding the menu made of wood..i guess..

some of the display inside...

the famous kopi botol....

not to forget... we see a very very nice fireworks there..somemore very near us... i think is to celebrate the harvest festival... very nice... too bad.. is too big to upload here... o ya.. i realize one thing.. Sabahan sleep very early.. they dun go out too late de le... hehe.. after that, we go home and rested... and we watched 奸人坚..haha.. feel so at home in sabah...with TV and other furniture:) that's day 3... some thoughts or reflection... islands here is all under Tunku Abdul Rahman Park... 真的很漂亮。。很美丽。。 只能用惊叹来形容伟大的上帝的创造。。 很享受微风徐徐吹过的感觉, 享受听到海浪的声音。。 很眷念那一种感觉。。 也很庆幸,有婉希的陪伴。。 看着日落的景色。。真的很优美。。 很久没有怀抱大自然的感觉了。。。 很高兴,能再次相遇Ps. Noah, Florence, Andrea and Gianna...

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