ups and downs

this morning i went to PPUM( universty malaya hospital) to visit my cousin. He is 16 years old but he had lied on the bed for more than a year because of unknown disease. looking at him, i feel so sad.. seeing him suffer, my heart feel so pain.. finally, today, the doc said that it is a cancer..it is not a good news but at least we know wat disease it is.. is cancer in brain.. pls..i pray God that You will heal him according to Your will.. church members and we as family will continue to uphold him in prayer..

in the evening, wai han called me. she asked me whether im at home. in less than 3 mins, she appeared in front of my house with a bottle of cough med. i feel so touched and blessed indeed. i have been coughing badly for the one week. she came just to pass me that. thank you so much!!! thanks for going so far for me.

at night, joanne fetch me to pj to meet up with pastor kelly and pastor victor. we have a great time in swenson eating 'topless 5' ice cream and prawn dipper with pastor kelly while pastor vic stay at home resting as he is not feeling well.. it is such a blessed time to spent time with pastor kelly. for 6 years, she has been my spiritual mom, taking care of me.. ensure that i grow in the Lord and have taught me a lot. she is my place of comfort, when i need any help or comfort, be sure that she is always there. i just wanna honor you and give my deepest thanks to you, pastor kelly for building me up into who i am today..

small gathering

today we have a small gathering for yoon ming in leisure mall 1pm at shakey.. is so happy to each other again after the penang trip.. everyone is busy finding job now. haha.. for me, i just want to enjoy holiday now, i will only work on jan.. after one and half year studying STPM which is so tough and stress, i guess i deserve a holiday, yeah!!! play while can before uni start.. yoon ming, gambate!! we will be praying for you and supporting you.. visit u soon lo..

carnival with kids..

this morning, my sister church, in touch is having children church in sri nobe school.. it is like a carnival of games for the children.. they are 500++ children that day.. because they are short of man power, so i asked my frens,michelle chiang, ying ling and lip han to come and help.. they are so helpful and kind to help.. when we were there, my job is to pick up the ping pong ball, it was tiring but i have fun playing with the children.. they are so cute, so adorable, so sweet, so naive.. i just cant help it but to love them.. to see them smile, bring me great joy.. i think michelle they have fun too.. at the end, we took a lot of carbonated drinks and junk food back..

hehe.. today, finally, my dad allow me to drive alone!! that means if my sister din use the car, i can drive the car out.. but carefully la.. hehe... so happy, after one and half year, finally i can drive..

at night, i went to see wan see's performance at MTC. uncle fetch me there.. those performance is nice.. they have piano performance, singing, rap, dancing.. wan see perform dance in this event.. i feel she dance gracefully, this is my first time seeing her dance.. beautiful..i met wai kuan there too. she plays the 'da chang jin'.. cool and is beautiful melody..i met back wan juen and pei yei there too.. i like going for this kind of performance.. listening to the melody just melt my heart..

finally i went for cycling!!

early in the morning, i woke up feeling excited!! im going for cycling.. i like to cycle.. because i feel so free when cycling.. is like no more stress, just cycle.. when the wind blow, is just so cooling.. i went to cycle with kar woen,pei wen, suk hong,ss,ting wui, wei lun and chee hong.. we went to taman pertanian, near klang ther.. i think is a nice place to cycle when there are trees surrounded us.. monkey playing around.. from 1015am we ride till 3pm.. when it is 12pm, it started to rain heavily.. at first we wait for a while, but later, we just want to try cycle in the midst of rain. of cuz, my whole body is wet.. but the feeling is just so fun.. hehe..first time cycling when raining..maybe after STPM, we just want to have fun, let go all our stress..thenwe went to four season house. it is winter now. the temperature there around -2 to -7 degree celcius.. so cold!!!!!!! plus we are all wet due to the heavy rain.. we hug each other and shivering non stop... it is a whole new experience..i like this cycle trip.. i feel so enjoy with them.. riding bike is my hobby.. next time should go together again!!!!!!!

im back! from penang trip

haha... im back from penang trip.. after STPM, the following next next day we, my class except 7 ppl din turn up, went to penang for our class trip.. it was fun, exciting and of cuz tired.. we went to quite number of places, experience a lot things. most of all, i enjoy the bonding together.. so close, so sweet, so love, so united..

one thing special bout all these trip is we organized it ourselves, from accomodation to transport and places to visit, restaurant.. haha.. truly, i've learn a lot besides having fun. i think my class is the best.. hehe.. bet anyone will say that their class is the best.. hooray, KENSETTIANS!!!! 24 of us total went to the trip.. we depart on 6 dec and come back on 9 dec.. we went to aquarium, tesco to buy bbq stuff, toy meseum the first day. next day we went up to penang hill, the famous temple(ji le shi) and butterfly farm. at night we have bbq near the beach.. the bbq was fun though a lot of sudden interchange.. really take the effort to make it success. haha... the third day we spent time in the gurney plaza and together we watched golden compass.. the fourth day we have free activity in the morning, lunch we have in restaurant and go back to kl..

this pic is taken outside of the aquarium.

oh.. the place i stay is sri sayang apartment.. together with me is wai kuan, sharon and agnes. we are staying in 18th floor. the view is super nice as our balcony facing the ocean.. how great GOD is, how smart HE is to create such beautiful place. i cant stop praising God almighty when standing in front the crystal blue sea..during the 4 days 3 nights, we gather and play in someone's apartment.. the feeling of oneness is supremely good!! some play ps2, some play mahjong, poker card, uno cards,eat snack, polish nails.. all sorts of activities..haha.the pic beside is taken in front of our apartment..i feel this photo is so beautiful, everyone smile so nice.. haha. after STPM and stressfree!!!

this is my first time ever go for a class trip and i think is the best. feel so happy throughout the four days where we do everything together. this is the class, my frens that have fight the STPM battle with me. it is a tough journey to go through STPM but nevertheless, having them around make the days of suffer much fun and much joy.. i will treasure all of you, KENSETTIANS because you all have impacted my life.. hehe.. i hope we will stay in touch in the life time!!

STPM is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally... finally after one month, STPM is over.. seriously, i dunno how i go through this month.. it is really so torturing.. no tv, no sleep.. haha but now.. is over.. is time to enjoy!!

i feel....

sometimes i feel life is a miracle.. we sad, we happy, we see a lot,we feel a lot.. yet amazing we are able to go through it.sometimes i feel stubborn is not a good thing but not a bad thing also.. but when i really believe on certain things, i do believe it with all my heart. however, the results always disappoint us. should i let go and start all over again? i still keep my promise but does that really matter now.. i think when time changes, things should changes, like me and you. i should learn to live my own life and fly high on wat i wanna do. tired.. life goes on.. my only hope now is God, cause he never disappoint me and He loves me who i am......

My 19th birthday!!

today is my 19th birthday.. so fast a year had passed.. this year birthday a bit different cuz my birthday is during the STPM exam season..everyone is busy studying and i thought no one will ever took the trouble to come and celebrate for me.. in fact, after yesterday math paper, everyone is so sad and down as it is so difficult to do. even myself, i feel very sad too.. but.. today.. i really want to thank God that He remember and He had created me so special and unique in His image..He make me born on this day 19 years ago and had took care and will continue to take care of me in the days to come.. thank you Jesus.

Nevertheless, i want to thank God for giving a bunch of frens.. i feel so blessed to have them. sometimes i really feel so loved by frens around me.. they just love me so much..

starting from 1145pm yesterday, i start to receive many birthday msg from frens.. all those msgs so sweet and will i keep and treasure in my heart. Then , a surprise call..Joanne call me from UK again just to wish me happy birthday..i feel so blessed.. so loved.. really.. all the way.. and not forget wan yee call me too.. :)

in the morning, i was quite lazy around, doing nothing. suddenly, wai han and agnes came in my room. i wasn't expecting them to come. they ask manda to open door for them to enter my house. i was shocked.. so shock.. i almost cried.. because i really thot today it will be a quiet birthday.. they took the trouble to come..

after wai han and agnes went back, siew wah, sook ling, pui yen and wei yi come to my house.. another surprise because they say they cant celebrate for me as they have class.. but truly some of them skip class..:P then we chat and we go down and eat lunch.. so nice to hang out with them..chat and really had fun.. when i come back home, rest a while and eat dinner as usual.. low and behold, someone call.. i was wondering why she call.. then i went out, i saw her, kar woen.. oh... i feel like going to melt soon... she come purposely to pass me my present wishing me a happy birthday.. except touch what can i say.. so today, i feel so so happy.. i went up and continue doing my thing.. someone call me wishing me happy birthday, that is andrea.. and she told me SHE IS ON THE WAY... i was...she came and passed me the cake and the small note..then, my sister mandy, she give my a big big love that sewed my name on it.. so special God Father, you love me so so super much that You grant me so many good frens and sisters.. i feel loved, so overwhelmed with touch.. who am i that you all come and make my day.. THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR LOVE.. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME SO SPECIAL..thank you... I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND SO MUCH...

today , florence gave birth to gianna... finally and is really the same birthday as me e.. just 19 years different.. so many good news today.. i feel that im the most blessed person in this world.. i really enjoy my birthday this year...

graduation day畢業了

today is my younger sister graduation day..7 years ago,i was the graduate and now is my sister turn. i really wish to go back to my primary school again since this might be the last time i can enter the school..i like my school.. SJK (c) Tsun Jin.. i miss the school and im proud to be one of the students there before.. next monday is my STPM, if u ask whether is worth it to go, i will say definately is yes..when i meet back the teachers, all memories flashed back.. the place where i grow up.. i walked around the school with my brother.. then we start to chat, is used to be like that and now is like that.. i used to eat here, play here, have my class here.. wa.. suddenly very touch and feel warmth at heart..stil remember last time there is no school hall, we have to donate the money even until i graduate the hall stil haven built up.. now.. is the biggest hall in wilayah persekutuan..

i met back my standard one teacher. she still remember me!! is like so long.. 12 years.. she remember me as i told her that my mom give birth to my younger sister when i was still standart one.haha, i think that time maybe im too happy to have a baby sister that i was daring enough to approach. we chat a lot. she said that i grew thinner. i guess so.. last time i was quite plum and big in size.haha... then i met back my BM teacher and english teacher. i never thought of they still remember me..they can stil call me by name. i feel so honored..i chat quite long with madam chow,my english teacher. i like to talk to her, she is very nice, and is so caring.. thanks to her for teaching me english. the teachers encourange me of my coming exam..they believe that i can.. thanks so much..

ok la.. since then.. i have to study lo... STPM here i come with God's help..

egg and jeli

today, is a wonderful day.. hehe.. as usual i woke up at 8 something..i was still thinking wat to eat as my breakfast, my mom suddenly peel egg for me to eat le.. then my dad purposely fried egg for me as dinner.. i feel super super touch.. though the act of peeling the egg shell and frying the egg is just so small yet, it means so much to me.. i feel so warm in heart..i love u dad and mom..

today i went for the last tuition of the year.. is biology tuition.. actually i kinda like tuesday tuition, cuz can go back with kar woen taking lrt..hehe.. she is such sweet nice gal.. like to laugh and very caring.. she give me her own self make of jeli.. so sweet.. ar... today very sweet.. i think i can get melted lo.. i feel that im the most blessed person.. for you who are around me that loves me..

smile and hope

i was very sad on sunday, there is some arguments and disappointment on the day before. i thought my day will end sadly. nevertheless when i reach church, i saw her smile. it is so genuine and so sweet.. is a smile that can change people's mood, it really lift my day.. thank you so much eunice!! that day, a lot of u, my sisters come and encourage me.. though less words spoken, action speaks louder. just a simple hug, a hand shake and so on. thank you so much!!

on the same day, Pastor kelly preached in EFC bout ghost... i miss her dearly.. always feel so loved with her around. i've learnt from the topic. 1 john 4:4.. greater is He that is in me than he who is in the world.AMEN!!! we have the victory over everything ya...

today, joanne called me!! from UK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so surprised and so shocked.. i never thot she will call back. haha.. sorry jo, i din give u the surprise reaction that u are expecting..haha.. jo is a very sweet gal, a fren, a sister who sent by God to take care of me. she always call me at the right time, when i'm not ok.. so nice of her and i feel so touched. i wil not forget such good deeds that she has done, touching my heart and of cuz impacting my life..

stil got 7 more days then come STPM.. cant wait is over but at the same time, i wasnt really prepare.. God help me.. i think is time to study lo... pray for me..

secret movie

the other day, saturday i went with my younger sister, manda and my frens(wai kuan) to leisure mall to watch secret which directed by jay chow. act at first i dun have a good impression on the movie cuz u know.. is jay chow who act and direct it.. but eventually, i heard a lot of good comments about it from frens around esp from my brother and elder sister. since they recommended then i think i should try to watch. as i said i watched with my other frens, one of them who is jay chow's fan had already watched the third time by now. very amazed..

truely the movie is very nice movie, the story line is just so good and unexpected. we all shocked and surprised by the story or the secret. it really creates a certain feeling in us that is so hard to describe. a bit of scare when we know the truth, a bit of sad, when things does not get right for the two main characters, and suspicious. the ending is end with a suspence. watever u think is act ur own theory or the story line that u wan it to be. it certainly enhance ur creative mind and imagination.. however i still support the gal, qing yi.. she is very pretty. maybe i like the style that she posses. xiao yu, rain also a pretty gal. she has something that attract ppl..but dunno how to say..i hope the ending is happy ending so i imagine the ending according my way. that at the end, they both together, living happily.. my siblings all also agree that we are going to buy the cd, cuz they are certain part that i wanna watch again. this movie is a successful movie cuz it can cause ppl to watch it again and again. trust me, if got chance, you should watch..cuz is a nice story line.

today 1am band come to my youth and has a mini concert..the concert is super, musician is very professian.. but most of all can feel the presence of God there. i will wait.. wait for His timing for i know no matter wat, He cares for us. i trust in Him..

at night i went to esther low's farewell.. somehow i feel im gonna miss her. indeed she has help me a lot esp in CF during my school days. being a vice president that time, she as a president has teached me a lot. is just so fun serving with her. her generosity is no doubt. may God bless her and take good care of her. May her hold firm to God..

tomolo is another school day.. im gonna work hard la.. hope next time stil can blog my feelings.good night

trial is over...

finally....... finally trial is over.. such hectic weeks.. can u imagine, i actually sleep for 3-4 hours a day for the past two weeks.. everyday is study,study and study.. no online, no tv.. well, i managed to sustain through, all credits give to God. for truely, without Him, i can never go so far.. it is Him who gives me peace to study.. the ability to memorize all facts.. but during these 2 weeks, happen a lot of things. i just break down and cry esp during sunday and to leave everything to God. throughout this exam, i've learn to surrender to God, my Lord..

just now i get a called from my fren, the first fren i ever know in my secondary school.. we chat about christianity, BGR and our recent updates.. then, she told me she said the sinner prayer.. wow!! u never know how my heart feel at that moment. is beyond words.. i've waited this day to come for so long. everyday , i pray that she will make the prayer and surrender herself to God.. i really thank God. i bet heaven and all the angels in there must be so happy and rejoice over her soul saved...

i heard of joanne leaving to manchester next wed to study law.. when i heard this, my feeling is mixed.. happy for her that she is going oversea to study what she wants, sad cuz she is leaving. recalling the first day we met, it is really not a pleasant one. we quarrel. haha.. but through so many years, frenship and sistership that has been established, our bond get stronger. she knows me as i am and accepted me for who i am.. with her around, there is always surprises. she teached me a lot of things. im definately going to miss her so so much.. i pray that God's favour and His blessings will be upon her where ever she goes. jo, take k lo.. all the best!!!

well, life goes on.. watever that is in front of me, i dunno, but i trust in my Lord, my shepherd. He will guide me.. so cheer up!!

finally!

finally i have my own blog lo.. actually just wan to try whether can i use my name to create a blogspot.. and i can!! haha.. this proves that my name indeed is so special.. hehe..this is my first post.. hmm.. im now studying in form 6.. going to sit for STPM soon. less than 3 months. wow.. time really flies and really there is no other free time to waste.. im actually quite worried.. but im learning to surrender to God.. doing my best and let God do the rest. since my trial is around the corner, that is end of this month. please uphold me in prayer. thanks..ok.. i should study lo.. jia you!!!!!!!