24 September 2009-feelings

it takes 101 reasons to be happy
but it takes only 1 reason to be sad

happy and sad is just a line away..
my feelings right now... ok.. not really ok..
i will diagnose myself as... mood swing..
my heart is getting heavier and down
but... i choose to think positively..
i choose to cheer myself...
because..there is a lot of reasons to be happy, to give thanks

give thanks because God's love for me is never ending
deeper than the sea, higher than the sky
give thanks because everything in the nature is at the right place
give thanks because i'm still alive
give thanks because i have people that i can care and love
give thanks because people loves me and cares for me
give thanks because whatever that i have gone through
give thanks because my life... is totally belong to God...

particularly i still feel inferior once in a while.
i feel....
i wish... someone will know and cheer me up..
i wish... someone will suddenly msg/call me to affirm me
i wish... someone will make me smile right now...
i wish... someone can manja me..by having my interest in his/her mind

sometimes is so hard.. to be in the middle
sometimes i feel... why always me the one who tolerate...
why cant you both tolerate and understand one another...
a lot of why questions... but God said.. put down urself....
let ME gets lesser... and more of God....
then probably i wont feel hurt....

" God will never leave you empty
He will replace everything u lost.
If He ask you put something down,
it is because He wants you to pick up something greater."

Lord, i need you so much now..
Lord, i need your love and touch..
to embrace and fill me...
Lord, i seek you and may you be found by me.