chinese new year

happy chinese new year!!!!! Gong Xi Fa Cai.. so fast another year had passed.. phew... this year on the Chor Yat.. first day of chinese new year.. my family and my brother's God parents went back to my mom's hometown.. all the way to Ayer Kala, Lenggong, Perak.. there we spend a day.. tuesday, we went to my brother's God parents hometown.. kampar.. this is the first time i been there.. we went to Utar.. the view there very nice.. lake.. mountain.. too bad, all my frens who study there back to kl.. haha.. cant visit them.. really had a great fun with my family.. is a good bonding time.. throughout the journey, we chat, we uncover the truth of my mom last time.. haha.. they say im getting more and more like my mom.. hmmm.. is it a good thing.. haha...

wednesday here im.. just came back not long ago.. o..

just now, i fall from stairs.. :( very pain.. the tears almost drop de.. when i fall, my dad who is not far from the place i fall, very fast.. very quickly.. come to me.. i think less than 1 seconds.. he faster hold me up and see how am i.. he is so worried.. i feel so so touch.. i mean very very touch le.. then he hold me and let me sit down on chair.. he help me to apply med to my knee and elbow.. it is very pain, but my dad's warmthness and love...take the pain away.. this makes me realise.. how much is dad's love to me.. instantly.. straight away, when i fall, he will be near me..
if my daddy on earth loves me this way.. how much more... my father in heaven.. when i fall down, when things mess up.. will He not staight away, instantly come to me and help me??? i'm thankful to have my dad and father in heaven:)

Happy Chinese New Year!!

Happy Chinese New Year!!! hereby wanna wish everyone a blessed ox year and May God bless everyone whom i know and dunno.. hehe.. May all the wishes come true.. wow.. this year my housing area is very happening and excited.. from my house, i able to see more than 10 times of the fireworks.. each from different place.. so nice.... u know wat.. that day after pap kolej, i slept at 530am.. the next day woke up at 830am.. so tired.. but really had a good time together with them my frens.. then thursday.. i slept at 3pm.. friday 2pm.. yesterday 1pm.. hehe.. today i cant sleep at 12am de la.. cuz is New Year!!!!!!!!! These are some photos taken during the pap kolej..

Michelle, me, esther and shu shean.. this board is decorated by harn ni, kae wen, me and evon..

this is kae wen.. a math teacher to be.. she is younger than me e....

this is esther, lu ching and me

After the pap.. which is around 12am.. we have fireworks in kolej itself.. then we have post mortem.. when it is ended, it is around 1am dy.. then we have a mug mission...

we went to esther room after the post mortem... we include.. shu shean, michelle, wan lin, me and of cuz esther.. there, we chat till 530am.. though we are tired, but we enjoy the time together.. just chatting.. this is our first time chatting for so long.. hehe.. i feel through this we can bring our friendship even closer and know each other better.. oh.. wonder why it is called mug mission.. because we bought root bear.. then we plan to drink while talk.. to celebrate chinese new year (though is a bit early) never mind la:P

Lastly wish everyone 新年快乐。心想事成。牛转乾坤。

a day for shopping

today when i woke up is already................11am.. o... o.. i guess today i need to sleep early as in now.... today i meet up with sook leng and siew wah... haha.. one is my ex wife and another my daughter.. haha.. play play for fun..

i meet them up in sungai wang.. from there we shop.. walk around and buy new year clothes.. manage to buy what i like.. 2 tshirt, one jacket( not sure whether it is called that way), 1 short pants and 1 jeans.. hehe.. within my budget.. so happy.. in the between, we went to madam wong to eat lunch.. i treasure this frenship.. though long time no see.. but just feel close when meet up and update each other with recent news.. a big thanks to both of them in helping me to choose and buy things.. u know me de la.. whatever also can.. no main idea what to do or buy.. they help me to choose, help me to check.. really make me feel so loved.. hehe, i feel loved when i dun need to make decision:P wat to do, im a phlegmatic..

of cuz.. when i mean that.. i feel loved when i dun need to make decision but the person can make decision according to my type.. hmm.. is it hard to understand??anyway, this time shopping i din feel tired o.(u know la.. im not good in shopping.. i will only buy what i want then go back de la..)maybe is good to walk with them.. hehe.. next year drag them to buy clothes with me also. haha..

night time.. today i show my dad something which i cant solve... dunno how to take the thing out.. being my hero... my dad somehow solve the thing.. he use his own way to settle it..i really feel so loved and so protected under my dad's wings... my dad seems to know everything.. even when he dont, he wont pretend he knows it.. he will try to find out the answer.. His attitude is my role model.. i really salute my dad.. really look up to him.. his humbleness.. his love for us and my mom of cuz.. he always put our things in heart.. though he din say it, he show it through his action..i like to talk to my dad.. he always give good advice.. he helps me to see things in another view.. he is very detailed in everything.. im who im because i have the best daddy.. he showed me the real world in the same time to keep child like faith.. if my earthly daddy is that good, so love me what more my daddy in heaven.. He will gives much more to His children:)

i really want to thank my parents here.. dad and mom.. ( i dun think they will read my blog)anyway...

dad and mom,
thank you for providing everything to me.. u give me the best that u can.. thank you for so loving me.. thank you for seeing me the most precious and most beautiful one... thank you for supporting in whatever do.. if not because of u, i wont be able to do what i am doing now.. u give me freedom that i can go and explore to the world.. u give me financial support that i can go to many camps and even mission trip.. u give me a chance to perform myself that i built my confidence.. u give me protection that i know im protected..u give me shelter that i know in any situation i can always turn to u.. thank you for believing me that i can.. sorry for the times i just wan to do my own things that i ignore u... sorry for the times that i grumble and complain that u have no time for me while u actually earning money for our usage.. and when actually i din spent much time with u also.. sorry for the time that i din stand on ur side.. how much u want our support just like how much i need ur support too... thank you for all these years u have raised me up according to the word of God.. i believe in the days to come, there will still be a lot of misunderstanding.. but anyhow, i love u so much dad and mom... nothing will seperate this relationship...im proud to be ur daughter..

with love, melia

爱自己

我发现很多人都对我说, 要好好爱自己,才能爱别人.. 要学会保护自己.. 要留时间给自己...
我在想... 我是否真的没有好好的爱自己?? 是否没有时间给自己??
我觉得.. 我有啊..

当我看到我的朋友们感动, 笑时, 我觉得很开心..
当你们疼我, 爱我时, 我觉得很幸福.. 所以,当我能用我所可以的, 去祝福你们, 我会觉得很开心..
当我做些事情让我开心, 那我是否在爱着自己??
因为爱我自己, 所以我想利用我现在有的时间, 去帮助身边的每一个.. spend time with each of you who means a lot to me..

哈哈...但是, 有时, 我会觉得累..为什么会累了?? 或许,人生真的有很多的事情要做, 但一天只有24 小时.. 所以, 真的需要停下我那繁忙的脚步.. 充电, 再继续..休息是为了走更远的路..

我的家人..朋友们..
你们总是那么的疼我.. 爱我.. 维护我.. 相信我..真的谢谢你们.. 因为你们的爱, 让我看到上帝的爱, 所以想把爱传播给其他人.. 让他们也会觉得幸福..

绿色人缘

today when i open the newspaper.. this title attracted me.. 从心出发, 创造绿色人缘..
什么是绿色人缘?

绿色人缘 是人与人之间最真, 最纯粹的感情...
绿色人缘是一种自然,单纯, 不追求繁琐复杂的人际,不含利益关系的人缘.

in this article, 刘丽宝 说:绿色人缘包含着爱..
she describes it in the word heart

H.E.A.R.T
H - Hug
E - Encourage
A - Appreciate
R - Reach out to help people
T - Touch

i find it is quite true to use this 5 principals in any of the relationship with frens, or relatives....

1. though im not really a touchy person, but i do hug people.. hug makes someone feels good. i read before.. hug is a outward action that express ur love from inside..(something like that, dun really remember it)
   
2. in our daily life, according to a reaserch, everyone needs at least 7-9 compliments.. this shows how much we crave for affirmation from others.. i was like that too.. need affirmation from others.. however, the only everlasting affirmation u can get.. is from GOD.. His affirmation is for eternity..
   
3. besides, appreciate is very important in life.. do not ever take things for granted.. appreciate others for doing for u..
4. we are called to help one another in this world.. as a saying goes.. no man is an island.. so help people when u can.. u may not know one day u might need their help.. i believe is a cycle. what u sow is what u reap...
5. touch..not the physical one.. but is from the heart.. u easily feel touched by what people have done to u..

there's other one that say 绿色人缘就是纯纯的友情, 就像对待大自然那样.. 我们不会对大自然要求回馈, 就像友谊,亲情. 不要求回报, 只是享受这种关系的经历和过程..

i like how this person code it.. frenship is like the way how we treat the nature.. we wont ask the nature to give back what we have give to her..we just enjoy the process..
i have a bunch.. a whole circle of frens who are always so lovely, willing to help, so kind, so tolerating, so patience.. i really thank God for them.thanks for always giving to me and bless me so much...:)

find rest....

我以为我已经习惯了, 但当我再次面对时,我的心还是会隐隐作痛.. 或许, 我真的需要时间,我需要给她时间,又或者我需要去正视面对它.

i think i'm like the Martha in the story of Jesus. always get busy with so many things.. is time for me to find time in resting in the Lord, like Mary.. is time to surrender all my things and burden to God,no more worries and stress.. as Pastor Noah said, i need sometime just for myself.. just to do wat i like, wat i wan.. is time to rest and sleep..tomolo 630am have to wake up tim:P

我生病了。。i'm sick:(

生病的感觉挺难受的。。 一直咳嗽， 伤风， 还有少许的发烧现象。。 昨晚， 1030晚上就睡觉了。。 怎知， 半夜4 点起床了， 因为， 咳嗽个不停， 连眼泪都飙下来了。。 而现在的我， 在宿舍。。不知道该回没有。。 其实，星期日时已经开始生病了。 爸爸和妈妈的叮咛都让我倍感窝心的。。 教堂里， 每个都很疼我。。在大学，每个人的关心 尤其是室友，邻居们 和同学们都让我觉得好甜，虽然还是很辛苦。。生病时， 就会有很想要撒娇的时候。。 想要有人疼，呵护。。有人可以让我撒娇的吗？
今天，我也乖乖的在翠婷的陪同下到了PK (Pusat Kesihatan UKM)。 医生给了药。希望我能快点好吧。。


flu, cough and fever is the bad combination when u are sick.. which im having now.. all u feel is tired, and sleepy.. i need more rest.. hope i recover soon ba

回忆 -- 怀念

最近, 我在想是否我真的老了.. 还是.. 当我们越来越大时, 我们就比较常忘记一些事情.. 我发现以前的往事, 我都不能记得清楚.. 或许,回忆有时回想起来, 像是真的却又像是自己捏造的.. 我都被混淆了..

*我日以继夜思念着, 因为爱你, 是我唯一不想失去的记忆*
我觉得挺有意思的, 就把它写在这里了..

昨晚, 我到了我一位小学朋友的孩子的满月酒. 天啊, 我才21岁.. 不.. 不.. 不.. 我才20 岁, 我的朋友就已经结婚生子了.. 那小宝贝是多么的可爱.. 他的名字叫黄文鑫.. 是个男婴..时间过的多么的快啊.. 转眼间,我已经小学毕业, 中学毕业, 现在就读着大学.. 小学朋友,8 年的朋友了.. 在那聚会里, 我们谈到了小时在学校的趣事, 或是所发生的事情.. 我这才发现.. 我有很多事情都记不起来了.. 就连谁是我六年级的科学老师都不能记得.. 然后,我便问他们, 到底以前的我是一个怎样的人? 这才发现, 原来小时我都挺孤单的, 并没有one gang.. 我都是从这gang跳到那gang去.. 我时常忙着为老师们做东西, 六年级时又是副班长, 所以挺时常不在班上.. 就这样, 我并没有属于我自己的gang.. 原来.. 原来,我小学都是这样度过的.. 有件好事, 我的朋友们都把我列为很高高在上的位置, 或者是所谓老师的乖乖女.. 从不犯规..哈哈..
到了中学, 我真的很庆幸有很都朋友在我身旁.. 或许曾经有这经历方知朋友的可贵, 所以更珍惜朋友:)

人啊.. 总是在失去后, 才懂得珍惜.. 或者.. 因为没有, 所以得到后, 也会更珍惜..
所以, 我的朋友们.. 珍惜现在一切拥有的.. 凡是感恩..

新的一年

有人问我为什么我的部落格的名字是my feeling's station..我想了想.. 因为在这里落笔的都是我的心情, 我的心得,我的感言..尤其是要谢谢的人.. 实在是多得不胜枚举.. 人要感恩, 我真的很感谢上帝把那么多充满爱心, 包容的人在我身旁.. 我喜欢余人参的口号..有心才会感恩... 没心就变了咸因了:p

回想起2008年, 真的有很多很多事情发生与改变.. 第一, 我已经是20岁了, 告别了十字的岁数.(好啦.. 我知道我老了.. 哈哈.. ) 第二, 上半年我是一名临教, 下半年我却是一名学生.. 好大的对比哦. 身为一名老师, 我看到了以前我所看不见的事情.老师们的辛苦.. 老师们的苦口婆心.. 老师们的恨铁不成钢的心情.. 我真的要向全体老师敬礼.. 他们真的是灵魂的工程师.. 一个老师能影响一个甚至千百个学生的前途, 也是国家未来栋梁的塑造者..我呀.. 自认做不来..下半年,回到学生的生活, 突然觉得学生好幸福哦.. 刚进到大学, 有点儿不适应.. 可能是新环境, 可能是离乡背井的伤感吧!(虽然我这离乡还挺近的呢) 然后, 要争取我想读的心理学.. 在本地大学转科系,一点都不容易. 时常碰钉子. 感谢上天的眷顾及他赐给我的平安与喜乐..除此以外, 上帝还给了一班要好的朋友, 在宿舍又有很好的室友及邻居们.个个都很好人,彼此互相相爱,互相帮忙...所以很感恩..

在2008 年里, 我也学会放开.. 放手.. 很多事情不需太执著.. 放下很难, 但当你真的放下时, 你才发现并没有你所想得那么难.. 忍一时,风平浪静;退一步,海阔天空.. 这句说的好,说的妙.. 当你退一步时,你说看见的是整个天空.. 若你坚持不退, 那么你的视野永远停留在你眼前所看到的,那么的短..当然,退一步需要很大的勇气,很大的忍耐..但你是可以做到的..

2009年, 我盼望在上帝里, 我能够继续的成长, 遵从神的意愿.. 也希望我身边的朋友都幸福快乐, 愿上帝的福分降临在他们的身上..我会好好的照顾自己, 不会再让你们担心了.. 说到这, 那天我遇到了淑玲, 我的前妻.. 哈哈.都是闹着玩的.. 她真的很了解我.. 她总是知道我一做起事来, 就会废寝忘食.. 她呀, 总会提醒我 好好的照顾身体.. 短短几句的关心, 让温暖流入我的心头呀.. 这才发现, 身边有许多朋友都很关心我..他们就很爱对我说, 要先爱自己, 才能爱别人...:)

幸福其实很简单.. 尤其是当你爱的人也爱着你.. 彼此相爱..幸福也可以是当你看到别人因你为他们所做的事情, 而微心的笑时...

曾经一个朋友告诉我.. 这世界上有两种人, 一种是懂得爱人的人,另一个是不懂得爱人的人..
甲爱着乙, 乙爱着丙, 丙爱着丁, 丁又爱着甲.. 在这关系里, 他们同时是懂得爱人的人,也是不懂得爱人的人.. 这句话, 我听时觉得挺有道理的..