i feel....

sometimes i feel life is a miracle.. we sad, we happy, we see a lot,we feel a lot.. yet amazing we are able to go through it.sometimes i feel stubborn is not a good thing but not a bad thing also.. but when i really believe on certain things, i do believe it with all my heart. however, the results always disappoint us. should i let go and start all over again? i still keep my promise but does that really matter now.. i think when time changes, things should changes, like me and you. i should learn to live my own life and fly high on wat i wanna do. tired.. life goes on.. my only hope now is God, cause he never disappoint me and He loves me who i am......

My 19th birthday!!

today is my 19th birthday.. so fast a year had passed.. this year birthday a bit different cuz my birthday is during the STPM exam season..everyone is busy studying and i thought no one will ever took the trouble to come and celebrate for me.. in fact, after yesterday math paper, everyone is so sad and down as it is so difficult to do. even myself, i feel very sad too.. but.. today.. i really want to thank God that He remember and He had created me so special and unique in His image..He make me born on this day 19 years ago and had took care and will continue to take care of me in the days to come.. thank you Jesus.

Nevertheless, i want to thank God for giving a bunch of frens.. i feel so blessed to have them. sometimes i really feel so loved by frens around me.. they just love me so much..

starting from 1145pm yesterday, i start to receive many birthday msg from frens.. all those msgs so sweet and will i keep and treasure in my heart. Then , a surprise call..Joanne call me from UK again just to wish me happy birthday..i feel so blessed.. so loved.. really.. all the way.. and not forget wan yee call me too.. :)

in the morning, i was quite lazy around, doing nothing. suddenly, wai han and agnes came in my room. i wasn't expecting them to come. they ask manda to open door for them to enter my house. i was shocked.. so shock.. i almost cried.. because i really thot today it will be a quiet birthday.. they took the trouble to come..

after wai han and agnes went back, siew wah, sook ling, pui yen and wei yi come to my house.. another surprise because they say they cant celebrate for me as they have class.. but truly some of them skip class..:P then we chat and we go down and eat lunch.. so nice to hang out with them..chat and really had fun.. when i come back home, rest a while and eat dinner as usual.. low and behold, someone call.. i was wondering why she call.. then i went out, i saw her, kar woen.. oh... i feel like going to melt soon... she come purposely to pass me my present wishing me a happy birthday.. except touch what can i say.. so today, i feel so so happy.. i went up and continue doing my thing.. someone call me wishing me happy birthday, that is andrea.. and she told me SHE IS ON THE WAY... i was...she came and passed me the cake and the small note..then, my sister mandy, she give my a big big love that sewed my name on it.. so special God Father, you love me so so super much that You grant me so many good frens and sisters.. i feel loved, so overwhelmed with touch.. who am i that you all come and make my day.. THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR LOVE.. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME SO SPECIAL..thank you... I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND SO MUCH...

today , florence gave birth to gianna... finally and is really the same birthday as me e.. just 19 years different.. so many good news today.. i feel that im the most blessed person in this world.. i really enjoy my birthday this year...

graduation day畢業了

today is my younger sister graduation day..7 years ago,i was the graduate and now is my sister turn. i really wish to go back to my primary school again since this might be the last time i can enter the school..i like my school.. SJK (c) Tsun Jin.. i miss the school and im proud to be one of the students there before.. next monday is my STPM, if u ask whether is worth it to go, i will say definately is yes..when i meet back the teachers, all memories flashed back.. the place where i grow up.. i walked around the school with my brother.. then we start to chat, is used to be like that and now is like that.. i used to eat here, play here, have my class here.. wa.. suddenly very touch and feel warmth at heart..stil remember last time there is no school hall, we have to donate the money even until i graduate the hall stil haven built up.. now.. is the biggest hall in wilayah persekutuan..

i met back my standard one teacher. she still remember me!! is like so long.. 12 years.. she remember me as i told her that my mom give birth to my younger sister when i was still standart one.haha, i think that time maybe im too happy to have a baby sister that i was daring enough to approach. we chat a lot. she said that i grew thinner. i guess so.. last time i was quite plum and big in size.haha... then i met back my BM teacher and english teacher. i never thought of they still remember me..they can stil call me by name. i feel so honored..i chat quite long with madam chow,my english teacher. i like to talk to her, she is very nice, and is so caring.. thanks to her for teaching me english. the teachers encourange me of my coming exam..they believe that i can.. thanks so much..

ok la.. since then.. i have to study lo... STPM here i come with God's help..

egg and jeli

today, is a wonderful day.. hehe.. as usual i woke up at 8 something..i was still thinking wat to eat as my breakfast, my mom suddenly peel egg for me to eat le.. then my dad purposely fried egg for me as dinner.. i feel super super touch.. though the act of peeling the egg shell and frying the egg is just so small yet, it means so much to me.. i feel so warm in heart..i love u dad and mom..

today i went for the last tuition of the year.. is biology tuition.. actually i kinda like tuesday tuition, cuz can go back with kar woen taking lrt..hehe.. she is such sweet nice gal.. like to laugh and very caring.. she give me her own self make of jeli.. so sweet.. ar... today very sweet.. i think i can get melted lo.. i feel that im the most blessed person.. for you who are around me that loves me..

smile and hope

i was very sad on sunday, there is some arguments and disappointment on the day before. i thought my day will end sadly. nevertheless when i reach church, i saw her smile. it is so genuine and so sweet.. is a smile that can change people's mood, it really lift my day.. thank you so much eunice!! that day, a lot of u, my sisters come and encourage me.. though less words spoken, action speaks louder. just a simple hug, a hand shake and so on. thank you so much!!

on the same day, Pastor kelly preached in EFC bout ghost... i miss her dearly.. always feel so loved with her around. i've learnt from the topic. 1 john 4:4.. greater is He that is in me than he who is in the world.AMEN!!! we have the victory over everything ya...

today, joanne called me!! from UK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so surprised and so shocked.. i never thot she will call back. haha.. sorry jo, i din give u the surprise reaction that u are expecting..haha.. jo is a very sweet gal, a fren, a sister who sent by God to take care of me. she always call me at the right time, when i'm not ok.. so nice of her and i feel so touched. i wil not forget such good deeds that she has done, touching my heart and of cuz impacting my life..

stil got 7 more days then come STPM.. cant wait is over but at the same time, i wasnt really prepare.. God help me.. i think is time to study lo... pray for me..