busy... busy.. busy

actually i wanted to post a blog long before...but too much to write.. too many things.. after coming back from mission trip then is youth camp.. after a day, i went to melaka with my family.. and i miss the genting trip with my form 6 frens.. very very sad.. very regret also.. then now i have to prepare for church project.. tomolo going for my cg outing.. then prepare for the thursday, i need to be emcee.. then sat and sun is already the christmas event.. on next monday im going to kluang for few days....then the whole holiday gone... no more days left for me.. :(

ar........................................................................................................................................................................... wat a tide.. indeed very very super tide schedule..maybe i wanted it that way also.. make myself busy.. so that i wont have time to think.. wont have time to miss my cousin and my uncle..though i still miss them, but now no longer in sadness.. miss them with a smile on face cuz i know.. they are now in heaven happily..u know.. yesterday is my happy day staying at home.. finally after my final exam, the first time i was at home in the morning and afternoon... i managed to clean my room.. entirely.. each corner being mop, cleaned... all the bears go bathing...

sigh... i wish i have more time for myself.. just enjoy staying in the room.. BUT......dun get me wrong.. when im rushing all these events, im very happy to do it. im happy to go mission trip.. im super happy to be in the youth camp.. im glad to spend time with family... im happy in everyday of my going out, spending time with each and every of my frens.. my language of love is actually word of affirmation and quality of time.. that's y... i will spend my time with those i love....

i guess.... i need a few days of myself, after christmas... to just sit down... read my books..listening to music.. no rushing.. just take my time.. i need to recharge....