wonder why im able to online?? im back to kl.. why?? my cousin, Zhe Yi has passed away.. on the 26th nov morning, i was still in Beruas, preparing for the activities on that day and i received a call from mom... Zhe Yi has passed away.. When i heard it, i couldn't help it but burst in tears.. i was so sad...i know i have to come back for the memorial service and the burial.. i really thank God for my team.. they are so understanding, so caring.. when i cried, Jocelyn, Mei Ling, Esther come and comfort me..including Bo Wen.. they help me arrange transport to go back to kl.. the nearest bus station dun have the bus so they took the trouble by calling 陈传道 to fetch me to Lumut and take bus there.. from Beruas to Lumut is 50mins to an hour driving.. im so grateful to them.. all the activities i in charge, i have no choice but to leave to them. im so sorry to make such havoc..
陈传道 is so nice.. she give me a treat for my lunch then fetch me to the bus station.. she waited with me.. she only leave after ensuring i was ok, in the bus safely... it is the first time i ever take bus alone.. 4 and a half hour journey.. i dare not to sleep.. trying to be awake though i still fall asleep..finally i reach kl.. and i have a lot of luggages.. take LRT back to Cempaka... so heavy.. but my heart is even heavier.. my mom fetch me home then i have to quickly bath and rush to the memorial service...
2 nights of memorial service and on the 28th nov, is the burial service.. Zhe Yi is buried at the Cheras Christian cementary, Taman Pertama.. all of us are sad.. 不舍得.. we will gonna him a lot a lot.. He is my uncle's only child, only son.. we grew up together.. we are always together among the cousins.. cant believe he went back to heaven so fast...
he actually fell sick 2 years ago.. after getting a flying colors result in PMR, he fall sick.. at first was diagnosed as TB.. then tumor.. then brain cancer.. in and out of the hospital.. seeing him go through all the therapy.. it is such a suffering journey.. he persevere through.. he had brain operation for around 10 times.. 10 times!!! he hang on to it.. i salute him.. look up to him.. he taught me to treasure life.. live life to the fullness and never give up...
the principals i learn from this incident.. treasure.. treasure whatever i have now.. time, family, frens, everything... 2ndly, stay healthy.. nothing is more important than healthiness...we will never know what happen in the next second of next minute in our lives. so treasure each and everyday and live life to the fullness.. dun take things for granted.. dun wait.. time dun wait for us.. dun say i will tell him or her i love u the next time.. dun say i will wait till the perfect timing.. there's no perfect timing.the perfect timing is now.. today... dun say im gonna do it tomolo.. dun say i will keep it touch with this person the next time.. take hold of today.. we only got one life..this also make me ponder.. life after death.. where are we going after death... do u have the assurance?? i know one day.. i will meet him in heaven...cuz Jesus guarantee that we will be in heaven if we receive Jesus in heart and confess He is our LOrd...
i very grateful to all of my frens esp church members who came and give me support and comfort.. esp thanks to Rachel.. she allow me to cry.. give me a listening ear..and also wai han.. she gives me time to be myself, give me to cry all i want... thanks to all the msgs of comfort.. 2days of memorial service actually was very busy, esp me, my sisters, and my brother.. we are consider the elder ones among cousins so we have to be in charge and help up... no time to think of it.. but on the last day... we just cant help it, but keep crying.. when we see him the last time.. our tears flow non stop.. we walked with him the last journey, following the coffin car.. cry even more.. i gonna miss him a lot.. really...
this is another funeral happen in my family.. last month is my uncle.. now is my cousin.. i really feel so sad.. but i know.. my cousin and my uncle is now in heaven.. where there is no sickness, no pain but only happiness and joy.. i believe in the gospel i preached.. however.. i think i need time to go thru this period of time..
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