...

You know, it's so funny...

I had an ideal plan...

Running away, to a remote place or an isolated place

On my laptop and start writing

Write all my feelings, cry all I want

And not care of anything at all...

Then I will be okay...

Sadly.. this is the reality

Alone... with laptop on, staring on the blank note

I have nothing to write

It is so scary when your heart is empty and hollow

there is nothing at all...

Guess that is a beautiful hope 

thinking there is a way to escape

But the truth is... FACE IT, no other way to run away

Escape is easy, ending would be simple

Going through the journey is the hardest

Just when I thought I know what is grief

Life gives you a lesson

Grief goes beyond feelings... 

It is a state of searching for meaning

I'm lost, I'm empty, I'm nothing...

I feel so lonely...

Jesus,

Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace

Would you come and help me?

Would you be my refuge and strength, my ever-present help?

Would you come and save me?

I know the answer is YES, but teach me how...

I don't know how to go through another day.