你还好吗？
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我捱过来了
这漫长的4月，然后消失了一星期
好享受那星期的放下
远离这是非地
就只是看书，祷告，走走，与我自在的人在一起
这正是我喜欢做的事
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当我慢慢长大时，更怀念从前的自己
我已渐渐的不爱写字/表达
曾经文字对我而言是我的益友
但是一直回头只会让自己更痛苦
随便吧！能写就写，不能也免了
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以下是我在那星期的得着：
God has no answer for you (when I asked for an answer)
& want you to move on (when I asked what God wants me to do)
by trusting him things happen for good (when I asked how)
起初，我没办法接受上帝的回复
但是，想想--祂是上帝啊，祂没有责任向我交代任何东西
就只能相信，相信祂知道，相信祂明白。
Someone said that I'm very fragile
I get easily influenced by surrounding
Hence, it is a choice I have to make
MAKE YOUR STAND, BE FIRM!
I was shocked when I first heard it
Because people would usually say i put a tough front
FRAGILE - I think I am, emotionally
I got so frustrated and hurt when people don't understand me/misunderstand me
So, i shut off and close my heart gate
Is time to stand & be firm
Let no one cross my bottom line, or to back off when people crossed it
Stop self pitying!
What I can do is
- To acknowledge that I'm not ok
- Tell myself that It is ok to not be ok
- Don't hide/pretend
- Be real in front of God
- Move on with life
- No turning back
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2 comments:
It's been very long that I din't connect with you since my departure to Kedah.
I do very much agree with you on the 6 things that you mentioned. It's always okay to admit that we are not okay because we not necessary need to be okay at all time.
Knock me if you need a pair of ears, I might be tied up for schedules but I can always find times for friend like you =)
Ya, is been a while, yet your concern and care has always make me feel that you didn't go too long :) A friend like you always make this journey much easier. Thanks, will bug you soon
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