leaders retreat....

just went to puchong watersport there with all youth leaders last weekend..

is a leaders retreat..

and i think.. we should change the name.. to... puchong wii sport cuz we literally play wii whole day n night n morning..

there is no agenda, no meeting in this leaders retreat just purely have fun, enjoy and mostly fellowship with one another..

i really feel so loved to be in this family of Christ..

cuz.. everything is prepared and i just enjoy playing there:P

thanks to Eunice, Eric, Wai Siong, Aunt Janet, Victor, Leonard etc who cook through the night and keep supplying all the bbq food & breakfast...hehe...

thanks to everyone in this retreat that make it happen.. i really enjoyed..

enjoyed the feeling of doing nothing, nothing to worry.. just sit there relax..

i think i really need that:P

today, Pastor Chee Soon prayed for me and he really speak right to my heart...

i have to find who i am in Christ..

no longer just meow meow.. hehe.. but to roar like a lion..

i feel timid, small, inferior.. but God through he affirm me again..

i can.. and he said im a natural sharing person..

amen! i shall claim that and cont to use my life to glorify His name..

i have been having emotional ups n downs especially these few months..

lost.. lost in my own world.. miserable.. uncertain..feeling unwanted, small etc..

is time to rise up.. i know, im trying..

sometimes is seems i almost can stand up but fall again.. and the process continues..

sometimes wonder y im like that.. is not really anything major thing.. but a lot of minor things combine together then i cant tahan le..

God, im lying & resting in you now.. help me to stand up and be strong..

i can overcome all these with You...

Change me and help me.. hold me as im trying to stand again..

i know if i can go through this, i can stand strong again..

im learning now.. not to carry monkey all around..

i've realised each one is responsible to their own lives..

so i can just do my part and leave them to face their consequences..

God, teach me to take ur burden and throw down all those monkeys...

im responsible with my own life, my relationship with You only..

guard my heart.. protect it that it wont break so easily..

teach me to love ppl around and will not get hurt..

let no one... no one.. can hurt me anymore...

take it away whatever that is not of u..

amen...

我承认我的软弱，承认我的无助

天父，你来辅助我好吗？

我在面对我人生的Goliath。。

我要学习大卫，为主站起来。。为主而战。。

我虽小，但是我会以神为我的后盾

加油，璇！